My Very Own Paranoid Delusions and 'Imaginary' Conversations


 

Observing, Assessing and Evaluating Crazy Me:
 
One of Those "Cries for 'Help'"


Even More 'Fun' 

I thought it might be even more ‘fun’ for the locals to get right into my personal space in a way that would not be possible for them to do just by pushing and shoving their way in, and then passing all they can get along as interpretive gossip. (not that any of them DO that of course!) So, bearing in mind that I have been told by experts that none of my personal experience of reality, as I perceive it, is ‘real,’ I thought that I would share my erroneous perceptions and reactions (‘affects’, which are not feelings like you have) right here on this page, with all of you. This way, you who are not ‘sick’ can enjoy observing and assessing someone who is told she is sick, but who will not accept it. 

Now remember I am going to write this “AS IF” this were reality so that those of you who know you are not brain disordered as I am, can really see what it is like to be at the mercy of one’s poor sick brain and yet believe that people actually DO behave this way and that it is in fact very common. To complete my disclaimer here then: 

 On this page, Any resemblance to any actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental or another sign of my inherently defective personality. Therefore, please do not worry that anyone else is ever going to be held in any way accountable for any of it. 

  

 

My Paranoid Stories of life in my city will appear here below so do get involved in this educational experience...Don't worry, (not that you would) as no real names will be used here since none of these people are really guilty of anything anyway...so how could they be?
• My Own Fascinating Insanity
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Homewood Administration and Staff 01/17/2012
University Faculty, Administration and Staff Message of the T.V. (Just for you)  “If you can't join them; beat them.”  Sorry... forgot which nerdy TV show I got that from.  I would like to draw your attention to the amount of time and energy you have spent, and also forced me to spend, focused on me and what is going on ... More>
 
Grandiosity Gone Viral 01/06/2012
By Patricia Lefave  One of the twelve stepper women locally who likes to socialize by keeping many others up to date on all the latest information she manages to get about me has said in the past,  “She's supposed to be some big brain or something but I don't see any sign of that.”  (Now careful as this is a secret being kept ... More>
 
Getting Enough Information 11/24/2011
Let me quote myself: Nothing makes sense if you don't have enough information. Everything does if you do.  I originally said this to the staff of Hamilton 2 and 3 in an attempt to break the estian spell they were under. They heard me, repeated it back to me and then acted out their plan to close ranks and stick together. After all as one ... More>
 
Loper's Performance 11/19/2011
This is a recent performance on a bus. Loper put on this show for me from four feet away. Loper does not appear to be aware of my awareness of him, at least not on the same level, and this is even though I repeatedly looked him right in the eye and smiled at him as he went through his usual act. This performance is an example of no ... More>
 
Public theme of the week October 2011: 10/28/2011
"Is he sure that's her? Yes...he's sure... it's pretty hard to believe isn't it? Careful. There she is.” Later on: Female university student to male friend.. “That's her. “(he looks at me) Female: (rapidly) woo woo woo woo woo....” Friend laughs in the usual rib poking, winking way...then the two of them look at Me to check my ... More>
 
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Correcting Me and My 'Madness' By Group Consensus
  My Strange Perceptions of Group Behaviour Among the 'Normal'

I am told that my perceptions of the behaviour of groups of, otherwise 'normal' people, is totally unrealistic and exists only in my own poor sick mind, so I am going to post my interesting perceptions and reactions here and all of you; locals, the psychiatrized, the presumably normal, or mental illness professionals, police officers now acting as the thought police, my ex physician who joined in etc.,  should all feel free to comment on it and offer your own experiences and assessments from the various points of view involved.

Just follow the few rules above and focus on me, and me alone, or else speak in the first person singular out of your own experience. Do not attack or argue with anyone else who chooses to post on this list.

Note: You can't post unless you are registered to the site with an e-mail address but those of you who want to remain 'concealed' could always use a pseudonym couldn't you?

My fascinating paranoid delusions and hallucinated conversations will appear as posts in the blog above this message board. So, ready, set... assess me!

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Come on Now People
Don't be shy. After all many of you are not at all shy when you are standing...
1553 Don't be shy. After all many of you are not at all shy when you are standing...
Posted:  3/12/2010 
By:  Lefave, Patricia

Let's Try and Oldie but a Goodie

 

This one too was originally stated to the psychiatric hospital staff having them some 'fun' while observing and listening to my reactions to them. I can easily expand it though to include all of the locals everywhere who have involved themselves in what they believe is a 'covert' operation;

 

“That which you are observing is observing you.”

 

If you did not need to justify yourselves by needing me to be 'less than,' you would already know that. It is perfectly obvious. 

 

 
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