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What is in the Public Chatter this Week?

Fri, 03 Feb 2012 00:00:00 GMT

February 2nd 2012

Ask Maurice the parking lot attendant at BMO or perhaps the bus driver with whom he just shared the latest. Did he put his own amusing “spin” on it as well?

Or ask the Homewood employee who keeps the ones on her route informed. Or ask a library staff member.

All I am doing is parroting back to you all the rumours being acted out for me by the PUBLIC, correct rumours, partly correct or total fabrications. Yet you at Homewood and the public as well cannot make the obvious connection between your own acting out, your denial of it all and my “diagnosed” paranoid delusions and “hallucinated conversations!

I am not now, nor have I even BEEN the “source” of these stories. Dale Tuck, a group of his co-workers and the public are fabricating my “reality” FOR me. Ironic isn't it?

In fact, it all has little or nothing to do with me. I am one of the props in a dysfunctional group “play,” “hidden” in plain sight and into manufacturing my madness as a way of making themselves “always right and never wrong” as is said in Dale's est training. The participants don't want to understand it because if they did, they could not keep themselves convinced that they are 'superior” in understanding or worth, to me, and that therefore it is OK for them to act it all out in my presence, since I will not know what is going on anyway, as I am too stupid or crazy to do so. The CIRCLE again.

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To the Local “Mystified” Population

Fri, 03 Feb 2012 00:00:00 GMT

Think of this like Occam's Razor, Werner's Razor and Now Paranoid Patty's Razor, in which the simplest answer is most often the correct one, integrate these two opposites by focusing really hard on this “Koan.”

I claim that people I do not even know, who also don't know me, are talking about me and the people I don't know, who also don't know me, are talking about me, and about my “claim” that they are talking about me, while they get together and talk about why I would believe that when they all agree they are NOT talking about me.

The behaviour of the local population acting it all out everywhere and my statement that they are doing just that, is nothing more or less than the SAME reality from opposing viewpoints. Yet almost no one sees this. Why? Well in order to protect and defend all the participants in the group from any negative consequences to them for their perfectly obvious behaviour, reality has been split in two and then reversed. This is the nature of delusional reversal and I am suggesting that this is a very COMMON phenomenon.

The group, as a group, believes it's members are all smarter, more conscious and therefore “hidden” from an inferior who only “thinks” people are doing “her” harm and talking about “her”, often right in “her” presence like she is not there. The group members of course are not 'the people” since they consider themselves to BE “hidden” from me

and

I am told that I must accept my inferior status and that nothing has happened here. I only “think” it has because I have a “mental illness” that causes me to HAVE this perception/reaction problem which exists WITHIN me and has nothing to do with external reality. That is a really neat “explain away” when you think about it, isn't it?
Now, once you are diagnosed and defined with one of these imaginary disease labels, it no longer matters at all WHAT you say or don't say, do, or don't do, since any of it will only be “spun” and made to “fit” the diagnosis, which has been created as an abstraction, in absolute terms, from lexperts istening to all kinds of people “claim” they have had the SAME kind of experiences with individuals and groups. Hmmmm....

What do you say, just for more laughs, that we try thinking about all of this by accepting it at FACE VALUE? What might we see and hear then? Put your “no one must be blamed game” away for just a minute and rethink it. Group denial, with the blaming of the targeted “sick one” often referred to as the “identified patient” [1], is, after all, the whole POINT of playing the 'game.”

So what is the point Paranoid Patty is making with her “razor” here?[2]

It is as I have already stated that the simplest and most obvious answer is often the correct one.

The Blind Spot in the group:
The group delusion of “superiority” allows the group members to convince themselves that they are ”hidden” in plain sight from an inferior who knows nothing. Since s/he knows nothing, that opens them to the opportunity to mock and ridicule in her presence, usually disguised[3] as “humour.” often the most vicious and contemptuous comment will be disguised as “humour” used to engage other blind superior idiots in the show of contempt.[4]

The Blind Spot in the Psychiatrists
The beliefs in which they have been trained themselves will not allow them to accept that this group behaviour of which so many of us speak exists in reality. They are taught to reject what the identified patient says as being reality and to NOT accept it at face value.

Result: the dysfunctional status quo is supported and maintained by the psychiatrists along with the dysfunctional group by reinventing this reality as a perception/reaction problem in the targeted “sick” one.

One the individual is defined as “crazy” the group abuse and “story telling” grows without limits since no one will believe the “crazy” one anyway.

The reason for the group behaviour?...Emotional catharsis provided for them through the use of socially sanctioned targets “deserving” of their contempt. It is a form of “bonding,”being a member of a group which defines itself as “normal” and not as one of “them.”

[1] which means the one who is showing the most visible distress

[2] Remember now you “normal” population...don't miss this opportunity to make a denigrating remark

[3] Badly

[4] There is a female jackass at a municipal office here for example who never fails to engage her co-workers in responding to her contemptuous remarks about me. She is also one who likes to “interpret” me, lowers her eyes and talks out of the side of her mouth, rendering herself invisible to an inferior like me. I always look right at her to see what the performance of the day is going to be. She has NO IDEA, it appears, that I am doing so for that reason and often “interprets” my looking at her as some sign of my stupidity, which she shares with another. She amazes me with her obtuse mind. Yet I know by her behaviour that SHE believes she is a superior human being. Why then, does she seem to need to keep proving it to others?

Last Nights News February 2012

Fri, 03 Feb 2012 00:00:00 GMT

Researchers are searching diligently for the cause of “mental illness.” They are doing this by searching through the brains they have kept in jars for just the telltale “anomalies” that show the differences between the “normal” and the “abnormal.” They wear white coats and check thin slices of the brains of people like me, now deceased and no longer complaining, many of whom who “thought” they have been “harmed by others” or who “think” they were child sexual abuse victims and, as Freud told us...really such tales from children only indicated the desire of the victim to seduce the “imagined” aggressor.

(the opposite of what the “supposed victim” was “claiming.”)

Moving on to other news, in the same report: 200 men were arrested in the biggest child porn ring yet to date including two of them in my own city. Sixty have now been charged. At last count 22 of the children used and abused like irrelevant objects have been identified. At least for these ones, being diagnosed with a “mental illness” for “imagining” they have been harmed by others or “just” SAYING that to “seek attention” won't be added to their current overwhelming trauma. They are the “lucky” children if you can describe anything in this as “better” than not being seen and heard at all.

What “illness” will the 200 men be diagnosed with?

Some of these children will have, or will develop, what will be defined as “mental illness.” Many of them will experience altered states of consciousness (psychosis) as a direct result of the abuse, the pressure, the inescapable stress and the horror of what they have been put through. Many of those not identified by the police with concrete evidence of it will not be believed and then will be blamed by “others” for inventing “stories” and will be further psychologically and/or verbally attacked by their families, often including the abuser who denies such things could be done by a family member. Many will also be blamed and be on the receiving end of shows of contempt and outright hatred by the public for being a horrible child who is inherently 'defective' for saying such things, especially about someone who is so well liked by others. Labelling tends to turn a temporary state into a permanent one for after all, if a DOCTOR says that reality is a certain way, who can believe otherwise right?

A few of these children, for whom rescue comes too late or not at all, will become serial killers who will no doubt be defined by some psychiatrists as inherently “defective” human beings; genetic defectives who could be “fixed” if ONLY researchers can locate that gene that causes these things. Could it be that what causes these things has something to do, in part, with the “No One Must Be Blamed Game”?

Forensics cops know that most serial killers are essentially acting out their own abuse. WHEN is this society going to come out of it's idiotic denial and start focusing on the real problem which is a lack of personal boundaries, a lack of any real empathy and an ongoing dysfunctional relating pattern which is passed off as “normal” and unresolvable? You have to face the reality of what these children are being put through and the true horror of it if you are going to deal with it and put a stop to it. If you don't the world is going to stay psychiatrically split between the abusers who “can't help it” because they are “ill” with a bad brain and the victims who can't help “claiming” they are abused by others, including family members, because they TOO have a bad brain that and their bad brains are causing them to think they were abused when “really” they weren't, as it would not be “reasonable” for abusers to behave that way.

Like DUH!

You police agencies need to SHOW every general psychiatrist in Ontario right now, the PICTURES of what children are put through. Nothing penetrates resistance to reality like concrete proof does it? “Proof is the bottom line for everyone.”

It will be very hard for them to hold onto the Family Romance after the images are burned into their brains in the cases, of loving family members getting their jollies or making money from horrendous child abuse that often drives their own children into madness, the more so after the behaviour of the perpetrators is denied while the children are blamed and labelled “mentally ill” for the effects on them of intolerable abuse, while trapped in hopeless and helpless situations where there is no escape possible.

As one of those involved in this latest roundup up put it on the morning news; “The child abuse victim is often disempowered as part of the abuse.”

Often they are told there is something wrong with THEM for objecting to it or “whining” about it, they are told not to talk about it and that no one would believe a child over an adult, and many are threatened with beatings, or an INCREASE in the level of abuse and even death if they try to talk about it.

The news anchor responded:

“So it creates a circle of abuse...”

Hear It? THE CIRCLE. Infinite loop thinking; the Dark side.

In this report there are now 8900 known adult participants in Ontario alone.

Get over the No One Must Be Blamed game. This is not about diseases BRAINS. It is about dis-eased MINDS and you cannot “fix” the metaphysical by physical means. EXPOSE the reality of this and stop excusing it; or worse, denying it's existence because it would not be “reasonable” for adult humans to behave this way. It is the “covert” behaviour, the secret keeping that enables and perpetuates it.

REASON has nothing to do with this.

There is another point I would like you psychiatrists to consider. Did you know that there is now some concrete evidence by other “researchers' that changing one's MIND also changes the brain? Another opposite viewpoint. Look it up. Then speculate; if that is true, what implications does it have for all your current reductionism?

Do you who are looking for genes as the cause of everything now have a bad gene that mistakenly causes you to actually believe that everything can be reduced to it's physical properties and definitions and that this allows you to understand everything perfectly?

The danger that exists is the same old one: One group of people decide they represent all that is “normal” and correct about being human and anyone who deviates, in any way, from the superior people's understanding of reality needs to be “fixed.” “Fixed” always means being made to be more like the Fixer; the “ideal” to which the Fixer, who is holding the concrete power, believes all others should aspire to be like, and if they do not, they should be forced to do so, for THEIR own ”good.”

Whenever someone is telling someone that what is being done TO them, BY someone else is for their own good, a warning bell should be sounded as more often than not, the one doing the good, is doing it to defend his or her own position, whether right or wrong and presented as “normal' in all inclusive abstract terms.

It is ALWAYS about personal boundaries in one direction or the other. The “cure” is going to be self focus on a premise of mutual respect for boundaries. There is no problem, and no crime, that is NOT about a lack of mutual respect for personal boundaries between ANY two people, in any circumstance of life. Try to think of one problem, from relatively mild to criminal extremes that isn't about that.

To the Local “Mystified” Population

Fri, 03 Feb 2012 00:00:00 GMT

Next Stop: Enlightenment for the Locals

I claim that people I do not even know, who also don't know me, are talking about me and the people I don't know, who also don't know me, are talking about me, and about my “claim” that they are talking about me, while they get together and talk about why I would believe that when they all agree they are NOT talking about me.

and

So what is the point Paranoid Patty is making with her “razor” here?[2]

It is as I have already stated that the simplest and most obvious answer is often the correct one.

One the individual is defined as “crazy” the group abuse and “story telling” grows without limits since no one will believe the “crazy” one anyway.

[1] which means the one who is showing the most visible distress

[2] Remember now you “normal” population...don't miss this opportunity to make a denigrating remark

[3] Badly

Last Nights News February 2012

Fri, 03 Feb 2012 00:00:00 GMT

Next Stop: Truth to Power

(the opposite of what the “supposed victim” was “claiming.”)

What “illness” will the 200 men be diagnosed with?

Like DUH!

As one of those involved in this latest roundup up put it on the morning news; “The child abuse victim is often disempowered as part of the abuse.”

The news anchor responded:

“So it creates a circle of abuse...”

Hear It? THE CIRCLE. Infinite loop thinking; the Dark side.

In this report there are now 8900 known adult participants in Ontario alone.

REASON has nothing to do with this.

Last Nights News February 2012

Fri, 03 Feb 2012 00:00:00 GMT

(the opposite of what the “supposed victim” was “claiming.”)

What “illness” will the 200 men be diagnosed with?

Like DUH!

As one of those involved in this latest roundup up put it on the morning news; “The child abuse victim is often disempowered as part of the abuse.”

The news anchor responded:

“So it creates a circle of abuse...”

Hear It? THE CIRCLE. Infinite loop thinking; the Dark side.

In this report there are now 8900 known adult participants in Ontario alone.

REASON has nothing to do with this.

Claiming to Have Been Harmed by “Others”

Thu, 02 Feb 2012 00:00:00 GMT

While Those “Others” Claim They Have Done No Harm

and

Now, once you are diagnosed and defined with one of these imaginary disease labels, it no longer matters at all WHAT you say or don't say, do, or don't do, since any of it will only be “spun” and made to “fit” the diagnosis, which has been created as an abstraction, in absolute terms, from experts listening to all kinds of people “claim” they have had the SAME kind of experiences with individuals and groups. Hmmmm....

One the individual is defined as “crazy” the group abuse and “story telling” grows without limits since no one will believe the “crazy” one anyway.

The reason for the group behaviour?...Emotional catharsis provided for them through the use of socially sanctioned targets “deserving” of their contempt. It is a form of “bonding,” being a member of a group which defines itself as “normal” and not as one of “them.”

Can anyone one else psychiatrized for such “claims” relate to this at all?

[1] which means the one who is showing the most visible distress

Claiming to Have Been Harmed by “Others”

Thu, 02 Feb 2012 00:00:00 GMT

While Those “Others” Claim They Have Done No Harm

Next Stop: Enlightenment for the Locals

and

One the individual is defined as “crazy” the group abuse and “story telling” grows without limits since no one will believe the “crazy” one anyway.

The reason for the group behaviour?...Emotional catharsis provided for them through the use of socially sanctioned targets “deserving” of their contempt. It is a form of “bonding,” being a member of a group which defines itself as “normal” and not as one of “them.”

Can anyone one else psychiatrized for such “claims” relate to this at all?

[1] which means the one who is showing the most visible distress

I am Not in Need of an “Interpreter” - Thanks Anyway

Mon, 30 Jan 2012 00:00:00 GMT

So All of You Please Stop Speaking FOR Me...

Next Stop: Pistachio Press

I speak for me. YOU speak for you...and please stop lying about what you do, trying to cover it all up, and telling me, and anyone else you can get to listen to it, that my perception of all of you is a mental illness from which I suffer as an inherently defective human being, instead of what it REALLY is, which is your group attempt to avoid accountability by denying the existence of the whole, ongoing, event. THAT is what the manipulations of est are all ABOUT!

This outcome is predictable on a generic level because it is exactly what groups like you DO, 99% of the time, no matter what it is or is not named.. That is why “we can't blame others” is your favourite platitude. It is a line that flies out of the mouths of mental illness workers as if you were all on auto-response. At the first sign that the identified patient may be going to “blame” some loyal, dysfunctional wonder for something, out it pops. It is used to block any real communication and hold the dysfunctional line on all that “blamelessness.” You are not blameless. You know you are not blameless, I know it and everyone involved knows it so WHO, exactly[1] is it that is being “fooled” by the authoritarian and/or group manipulative ploys and head games? I can tell you that it is STILL not me. I already know what you all do and why you do it. I find your group behaviour childish and disgusting and your capacity for denying that what you do harms others, while covering it over by claiming this is a “perception/reaction problem that “we” are having, beyond belief.

There is no big “mystery” here, other than the mystery of how you people can manage to remain in this group delusion for such a bloody long time, despite any and all evidence that what I am saying is true and that it is the rest of you who just DON'T GET IT!

The title of this one is because of what I am hearing over the last couple of days acted out by the public. One of the “hes” involved is apparently trying to explain how he feels and another of the “hes” is apparently doing my talking FOR me. “She is telling me to speak or let go...”

Other he: “You don't really know anything about her. SHE has moved on with her life...you should move on too.”

Do you people not know that I can actually form entire sentences? Yep... All by myself too. Isn't that amazing?

I heard that “she has moved on” bit many years ago too.

“She” is the personal pronoun of objectification. Do any of you know what that means or do you need lots and lots more detailed explanation for that?

I don't care WHO is “she-ing me...doctors lawyers, bus drivers, twelve steppers, cops, cranky old busy bodies with no life other than to talk about people they don't really know all day, or the Prime Minister. I am not a brain dead OBJECT of observation. I am not “the case”, (“fascinating” or otherwise) the “subject”, the experiment, the outsider, the patient or the whack job. I AM A PERSON. And while university students may find that “hilarious,” many of them because they are being led by the nose to “interpret” everything in pathological and/or “joke” terms, what it actually is, is a statement of fact.

Let me make it even clearer for all of you:

I decide who I am, what I know, what I don't know, what I think, what I want and what I feel. THAT is what having a separate identity is FOR. That is what I am supposed to have control over just like what YOU are supposed to have control over is your OWN identity BUT not over MINE. You are violating my personal boundaries when you presume to think, speak and feel FOR me just as that is what you are doing when you presume to do that for anyone else. You are being outrageously arrogant if you believe that you understand my life experience BETTER that I do, even the experienced you shared to some extent. It is even worse when you think you know my experience better than I do when you had NO part in it whatsoever. This is WRONG of you. WRONG. BAD. STUPID. IRRATIONAL. OUT OF LINE.

It should be parent by now in this “fascinating case, that if a couple of pieces of information are removed from any situation or if you falsely believe the event or problem starts from a point where it in fact does NOT, that those things change th e overall MEANING of everything. This it true everywhere, anytime for anyone. So the idea that an “identified patient” can be pigeon holed by what he, or she, “says” in ten to fifteen cost effective minutes and then have his, or her, life legitimately taken over by a system that does it's 'defining' based on a one size fits all abstraction in absolute terms is just plain stupid. STUPID. And reckless, and destructive, and demeaning, and invalidating ....need I expand the list so you can “make sense” of the bloody obvious? The system stinks. Stop trying to “fix” the world by pumping human beings full of mind altering drugs, against their wills if necessary, which ultimately destroy well being rather than enhancing it. You are CAUSING more problems than you are solving and this needs to change.

I am not the one who can't face reality: YOU are.

You want to make February 8^th a “Let's Talk Day?

OK but if were REALLY going to talk, let's get ALL the people who are experiencers of the mental illness system and who want to talk about how they REALLY feel right out in the open, but who are afraid to talk about it because they have negative experiences with it. Let's not listen only to the happy “consumers” that are hand picked by bio psych to support their own agenda.
I will put out the word to all the psychiatric survivours like myself who are not afraid to talk about our “mental illness,” in more real terms but who have become afraid, for damned good reason, of the system to which they have already talked, and are very afraid of the of the actual results they got from doing so.

How soon should we expect the intimidation process to kick in for failing to toe the bio psych party line? THAT'S what many of us are afraid of; not that we have had psychological, or emotional distress or difficulty getting past traumas but that the system that we have to talk to treats everything like it is a self contained personal defect or imaginary disease without any relationship whatsoever to external reality or other people. Blaming the body of the patient gets everyone else off the accountability hook and it does something else too. It keeps the same, very real problems going to infinite loss with no resolution possible. You see we are not all unquestioning followers of authority or famous people who we think MUST know everything. Many of us actually believe that we understand some things that your handpicked mental illness enthusiasts don't. Imagine!

So do you want us ALL to talk; including all of us who are not at all gung ho, “medication” swallowing, enthusiastic sports stars, actors and politicians? Or just those who will agree with you? OK. We'll talk. YOU LISTEN for a change. REALLY listen; not just sit listening for the sickness “noises” you have been programmed to hear and “interpret” according to your own training.

Calling all Psychiatric Survivours!
Canada's mental illness system (along with Bell Tel.) say they want us to talk on February 8^th.

Anyone who would like to try, once again, to get them to actually hear you, please feel free to do so, and if you want, you can send me a short piece on what YOU think is wrong with the system and I will post it here in the Let's Talk Back Blog section OR you can use the interactive Bulletin Board on the new Let's Talk Back page as part of a group effort to have our say openly and honestly. Keep in mind though that this is a PUBLIC bulletin board which can be read by anyone.

If you want me to post if for you, please include a note on the bottom indicating that I have your permission to do so. You may also ask me to remove your piece if you change your mind at at some later point.

Only two rules: No cursing, swearing: I want to keep my G rating.
No naming of specific individuals or psychiatrists, or attacking others who post here and no threats of violence of any kind against self or any others.

Watch for the Let's Talk Back page with a “post it yourself” section to appear within a few days. This is not a page for the satisfied customer or for those promoting bio-psych. You who are promoting the current system already have an abundance of such places for yourself. This site is for those who are told they must not “whine” or complain about their situations or their treatment. If you have negative experiences with psychiatrists, doctors, friends, family members, employers, treatment and the public as a result of your psychiatric diagnosis and labelling and/or treatment you can Talk Back here.

To do the posting yourself you will need to register your e-mail to my site, which will give you access to the Let's Talk Back bulletin board with your own personal word processor. Scroll down to the bottom of the page or use the register to this site icon either on the Home page or on the LTB page.

Let's see if the “Let's Talk” campaign is a real attempt by professionals to listen and learn from us from our own point of view or just another opportunity to promote bio-psych using some slick advertising campaigns with no questions asked, no negative opinions “allowed” or tolerated. When the board is up and ready to use, I will post the first bit of “complaining” myself.

[1] To repeat myself ad nauseam

I am Not in Need of an “Interpreter” - Thanks Anyway

Mon, 30 Jan 2012 00:00:00 GMT

So All of You Please Stop Speaking FOR Me...

Other he: “You don't really know anything about her. SHE has moved on with her life...you should move on too.”

Do you people not know that I can actually form entire sentences? Yep... All by myself too. Isn't that amazing?

I heard that “she has moved on” bit many years ago too.

“She” is the personal pronoun of objectification. Do any of you know what that means or do you need lots and lots more detailed explanation for that?

Let me make it even clearer for all of you:

I am not the one who can't face reality: YOU are.

You want to make February 8^th a “Let's Talk Day?

Calling all Psychiatric Survivours!
Canada's mental illness system (along with Bell Tel.) say they want us to talk on February 8^th.

[1] To repeat myself ad nauseam

Source of “Schizophrenia”

Sat, 28 Jan 2012 00:00:00 GMT

By Patricia Lefave, Monophrenic

One of the main sources of “schizophrenia” is the chronic gossip and storytelling done by those who cannot make the connection between their own behaviour and the reporting of it by those they are doing the storytelling about. The reason they cannot make the connection is because they are deluding themselves that they are a superior form of human being who is not seen, heard or understood by those they talk about. This is about the “them and us” split. Therefore, when the one they gossip about, who they mock and ridicule says that they do, what they do, those who delude themselves that they are “hidden” from such an inferior cannot, and will not, make the perfectly obvious connection between themselves and the individual to whom they are doing it!

Since they can't be “the people” of whom the individual speaks, it can only be some “imaginary people” which exist only in the defective individual's mind. That being the case, see how right they are to see and hear that one as defective, which of course means that the lack of consciousness in him or her (projection) “proves” the people doing the talking about him or her, right in front of him or her, like s/he is not really there, need not worry about being seen, heard or understood when they DO THAT..

Delusional group tautology completed.

It is the group delusion of superiority and “concealment” that keeps this going indefinitely.

Right now, in my own case, the same groups of people discuss, in front of me, how they have to be careful not to say anything in front of me, as they have been been told that their talking about it has been seen and heard. Think carefully about what this means from MY point of view. They even say IN MY PRESENCE, “There she is now”, then turn as one to look at me, as I look right back, and they STILL can't make the connection. This has been almost two decades of the same group behaviour, over and over again, and it is still being denied to exist.

This is the kind of absurd nonsense with which, we on the receiving end of it, are bombarded, along with multiple versions of reality and non stop contradiction, WHILE being told it does not really exist. There is ZERO direct, genuine communication while we are reduced to the level of OBJECTS of observation. We are totally invalidated as human beings since our reality is being defined FOR us by group consensus, in order to allow the group to continue in it's delusion of grandeur and “concealment.” This is also why many psychiatrized people believe that these groups of idiots are just “pretending” to be stupid since it becomes pretty much impossible to believe that this many people could be, or STAY, this ridiculously blind to themselves for this long. It is mind boggling.

What is “schizophrenic” is the split in reality ITSELF based on this delusional reversal between those who see and hear the bloody obvious and those who refuse to see and hear the bloody obvious about BOTH themselves and the other they objectify.

When the individual targeted as the “defective” breaks under group pressure, non stop contradiction, psychological isolation and pressure, the external experience gets internalized as the waking nightmare that it actually is, complete with the voices of mocking, ridiculing and contempt who will not just leave the individual alone no matter what s/he says or does. THINK about it, you pack of idiots acting out every day. Use those heads for something besides decorating with hats.

When you SAY, “I am going to be really good and not talk about it today in front of people,” you ARE talking about it right then and the people you are talking about find you ridiculous because you ARE ridiculous. But they get to be labelled “crazy” and have their lives taken over and destroyed because people like you can't, or won't, “admit” to anything. Those you are talking about are treated like their lives are not as real or as meaningful as yours, so they don't matter. That is a 'message' that comes through loud and clear. Would you like to be treated like that, so that someone like you, in the position you are in now, did not have to worry about having their lives suffer any negative effects for what they did... and then lied about doing? Would you feel “friendly” toward such people? Or would you feel frightened, bewildered intimidated and frustrated at the lack of empathy and justice, and very angry that no matter what you said or did, or how many ways you said it, your truth was NEVER accepted. When the control and invalidation of others got even worse for making the attempt to get them to hear you and/or for trying to escape from that overpowering control, how do you think that would feel? Use your imagination.

Why don't you talk that over amongst yourselves from six feet away? Don't worry...neither I nor anyone else like me will have any idea what you are talking about anyway...right?

Making the Leap into Reality
This one is for all of you locally who still can't quite make the “amazing” connection between the two sides of the same experience: my side as the targeted, invalidated, psychologically isolated “item” being “experienced out”

and

your side, as the manipulated group, creating the chaos, confusion and “fun” as directed by the est-ee nurse who is the 'Source” of this version of the domination 'game.”

The psychiatric nurse is the one who “plans his goal FIRST; THEN he plays his “game.”

This part is also for all of the “Pats,” who have involved themselves, both male and female, who have added to the identity chaos with their own behaviour , “opinions” and “inputs”, as they say in Dale's training, and all of the “Nancys”, several of whom have acted it all out in my presence.

It is for the library staff at all branches, and many of the patrons, including at those branches to where I never, or rarely, go. For all their relatives and friends acting out at the mall and in the Food Courts. For all there who never stop talking, and who cannot yet make the connection between:

Talking about people

And

the people who say THEY are talking about them.

Some of us call this, “seeing the perfectly obvious.”

The only difference between my experience of reality and your experience of the SAME reality, is my assigned role as the “defective.” You see folks, my role is a contrived one, and this was done by the est-ee aggressor with a hidden agenda of domination, who manipulated a group of his co-workers to participate in it, defined as a “joke” or a “game.” He also “secretly” manipulated me, to accept what was going in as a “joke” or a “game” which INCLUDED me. Of course, I am pretty sure now that the group of co -workers he manipulated to accept a different version of reality did not know that and that it is most likely that he denies it as well.

I believe he then enjoyed “observing the action between the two sides.” You know? Like it was a form of “entertainment.” (recreation)

It then grew out from the original group of participants by means of the predicted “chain reaction” to cover the whole city and beyond.

Then, you see, to make the reality of it just go away, the target, (me) had to be told that “nothing happened” there, or in public, and that this is all just my perception/reaction problem, for which I received a nice invalidating and controlling psychiatric label after being stressed and conned out of my sanity and then forced out of my job as a genetic defective who cannot be trusted. Soon I am going to make you a nice list of “thief” stories as created and passed along via the same “chain reaction.”.

This is how one becomes the ''winner'' in the ''game of life'' according to the

est-ee's ''secret'' training for power and control.

As Fenwick stated in her analysis of the est training, “the power is Real.”

The est-ee nurse only STOPPED smiling with “satisfaction” recently. The only real “hiding” being accomplished here is the “hiding” all you participants in this are deluding yourselves about, even as you act it out every day. Don't worry though as I have my orders from the system not to confront you or try to talk about it locally at all. So I have not. However, there is a limit to the control of the psychiatric system as I also will not smile on demand, or act friendly toward those who are abusing their power to save their own butts. In other words, you can silence me but you can't make me talk as if I were grateful for this disgusting display of self serving power and control. I will “forgive” those who own it and say so publicly and DIRECTLY to me. I will NOT “forgive” those who don't, as those who don't, aren't interested in “forgiveness.” I am sure that most of you who are to remain the “unforgiven” really won't care about that and frankly, neither will I.

Despite the fact that you people locally have become a powerful mob, capable and willing to take over control of my life, I will NOT pretend with you, or FOR you, that I cannot see you, hear you, and that I do not know what happened to me, or how it was done, so that everyone ELSE can feel superior to me and of course, blameless.

It is time for everyone to grow up and face reality. In fact, it is long overdue. There is no “them and us.” We are ALL “them” and we are ALL “us.” The splitting is an illusion and that illusion is making people very sick. It is driving many to suicide and a few to murder, or mass shootings etc. of those mobs of mocking abusive critics that have set themselves against them. People like you are also the people who are against “people who think that people are against them.” DUH. The decision to DO that is always made AFTER the psychiatrized “genetic defective” realizes that no matter what he or she says or does, there is no way out. So people take the only way out that is left to them: escape from life.

A few decide they will take a few of their abusers and mockers with them since it no longer matters anyway. This does not have to happen. Stop making death the only way out and you will stop the suicide/murders that result from being trapped in that hopeless/helpless position. Create the way out, open the door to change, and don't forget to include as part of the way out, the current obvious insanity of the whole group/mob which must undergo a change of attitude and behaviour itself for real resolution to become the new reality.

Stop the nonsense. Let go of the “Family Romance.” Homewood IS like a “family” and that very often IS just the problem. What goes on inside those four walls DOES NOT stay inside those four walls, and the fantastic belief that it does, is delusional and completely out of touch with REALITY.

Ironic isn't it?

Source of “Schizophrenia”

Sat, 28 Jan 2012 00:00:00 GMT

By Patricia Lefave, Monophrenic

Next Stop: Talking AT MY Psychiatrists and Enlightenment of the Locals

Delusional group tautology completed.

It is the group delusion of superiority and “concealment” that keeps this going indefinitely.

Why don't you talk that over amongst yourselves from six feet away? Don't worry...neither I nor anyone else like me will have any idea what you are talking about anyway...right?

and

your side, as the manipulated group, creating the chaos, confusion and “fun” as directed by the est-ee nurse who is the 'Source” of this version of the domination 'game.”

The psychiatric nurse is the one who “plans his goal FIRST; THEN he plays his “game.”

Talking about people

And

the people who say THEY are talking about them.

Some of us call this, “seeing the perfectly obvious.”

I believe he then enjoyed “observing the action between the two sides.” You know? Like it was a form of “entertainment.” (recreation)

It then grew out from the original group of participants by means of the predicted “chain reaction” to cover the whole city and beyond.

This is how one becomes the ''winner'' in the ''game of life'' according to the

est-ee's ''secret'' training for power and control.

As Fenwick stated in her analysis of the est training, “the power is Real.”

Ironic isn't it?

Source of “Schizophrenia”

Sat, 28 Jan 2012 00:00:00 GMT

By Patricia Lefave, Monophrenic

Delusional group tautology completed.

It is the group delusion of superiority and “concealment” that keeps this going indefinitely.

Why don't you talk that over amongst yourselves from six feet away? Don't worry...neither I nor anyone else like me will have any idea what you are talking about anyway...right?

and

your side, as the manipulated group, creating the chaos, confusion and “fun” as directed by the est-ee nurse who is the 'Source” of this version of the domination 'game.”

The psychiatric nurse is the one who “plans his goal FIRST; THEN he plays his “game.”

Talking about people

And

the people who say THEY are talking about them.

Some of us call this, “seeing the perfectly obvious.”

I believe he then enjoyed “observing the action between the two sides.” You know? Like it was a form of “entertainment.” (recreation)

It then grew out from the original group of participants by means of the predicted “chain reaction” to cover the whole city and beyond.

This is how one becomes the ''winner'' in the ''game of life'' according to the

est-ee's ''secret'' training for power and control.

As Fenwick stated in her analysis of the est training, “the power is Real.”

Ironic isn't it?

Community Acting Out- January 2012

Fri, 27 Jan 2012 00:00:00 GMT

Did you know that “it is the guy with the beard who thinks he is in love with her?”

Which of the many guys with beards of course is another matter... Also the source of the rumour is something else and it could just as easily be another manufactured “story” which the locals so love to spread, or it could be reality, or it could be a little “test” to see what kind of a reaction the story teller acting out in front of me can get, or it could be the story teller acting it out genuinely BELIEVES the story even though it is a load of crap. In any case, I am sure all the citizens will debate it all amongst themselves and come to some decision about what my reality is on this one, just like on all the other 'stories' they have been passing along for almost twenty years now. At least that might happen if my report of this was reality; which of course it is not, as it would not be reasonable for strangers to me to act this way...therefore none of this has ever happened and isn't happening now either....therefore, I must not try to 'confront' all of the “normal” population here with my paranoid delusions and hallucinated conversations about them as that would be “inappropriate” of me to do so...especially if they thought their “covert” ops weren't really “covert” at all. That would just ruin all their “fun.” Is retired bus driver Bob Crawford related to Homewood nurse Chris Crawford?...I don't know why I suddenly wondered about that there...must be part of my mysterious “illness” that no one can understand except experts......

Really, there is nothing happening; nothing at all and I am only imagining it.

One of the other things I imagined this week....

”Well, everybody was sure that Steve would have told her. But apparently he did not tell her anything either.”

Now which of all the “Steves” around might this one be?
Oh now there I go again treated all these hallucinated conversations of mine as if they were reality...aren't I just the madwoman who can never be “cured”? That is probably why I also hallucinated total strangers walking to within a few feet of me and saying things like , “I used to really hate her for what she has done but NOW, I just feel sorry for her.”

...Aren't they generous with their forgiveness? I know I should feel grateful for all of that but then you know whack jobs like me are never grateful when others tell us we should be and of course it is the mystery disease I have that causes that and has nothing at all to do with reality...does it?

Now Nancy at the library is alleged to be of the opinion that ''they BOTH need therapy.'' She is dropping into the main branch a lot with the latest updates (according to my hallucinations) so maybe a bus driver could sneak into the back room again and get the latest opinion poll???? Check with Tony C and see what he's got. (aren't my paranoid delusions fascinating? Let's ask the library staff if they think so) Did you know last week I reported that a toilet paper dispenser was taken apart in the women's room there? Well according to later stories, an employee suggested that I probably just did that myself..you know...in order to seek that attention nuts like me like to go for by ''pretending'' to help when ''really'' we are the ones causing the problem.

Needless to say, I will not be making any further reports of any problems at the library main branch, since it will only be added to my list of “symptoms.”....

Really, everyone else knows better because the Homewood staff, volunteers, patients and family members have kept everyone informed of just who is whom and what is what. If you can't trust the Homewood staff to tell you the straight truth, who can you trust? Right?....Good question.

She Says, It's Like Having Your Life Turned into a Public Circus

Fri, 27 Jan 2012 00:00:00 GMT

A Message off a C.D. For My Psychiatrists About Me AND You...Not “or”... from Natalie Merchant

"Carnival"

I've walked these streets

A virtual stage

It seemed to me

Make up on their faces

A.c.t.ors took their

Places next to me

I've walked these streets

In a carnival

Of sights to see

All the cheap thrill seekers

The vendors & the dealers

They crowded around me

Have I been blind?

Have I been lost?

Inside myself and

My own mind

Hypnotized

Mesmerized

By what my eyes have seen?

I've walked these streets

In a spectacle of wealth & poverty

In the diamond market

The scarlet welcome carpet

That they just rolled out for me

I've walked these streets

In the mad house asylum

They can be

Where a wild eyed misfit prophet

On a traffic island stopped

And he raved of saving me

Have I been blind

Have I been lost

Inside myself and

My own mind

Hypnotized

Mesmerized

By what my eyes have seen?

Have I been wrong

Have I been wise

To shut my eyes

And play along

Hypnotized

Paralyzed

By what my eyes have found

By what my eyes have seen

What they have seen?

Have I been blind

Have I been lost

Have I been wrong

Have I been wise

Have I been strong

Have I been

Hypnotized

Mesmerized

By what my eyes have found

In that great street carnival

In that carnival?

Of this particular city...

Careful Now....Don't let me spot you acting out like righteous idiots as it is all being kept a great “secret” from me...for No one Must Be Blamed....

Frankie

Fri, 27 Jan 2012 00:00:00 GMT

Next Stop: Spirit Voices

I was 58 and a bit when I died.

I was living in a hell hole of a place where the landlord acted like they were doing me a big favour by letting me live when no one else would have me. I lived in an institution most of my life before this but that was before the powers that be decided these places should be run 'like a business.' I was not very profitable as ‘a business.’

I got sick and confused when I was still a child and I never really developed into a real adult after that. Oh I tried, but people saw me as 'different' and they treated me different too. I could never object to anything I was told I had to be, or do, or say; I could never question anything anyone else said...not because I did not want to, or did not think of a reason to do so, but because they all told me I could not and that I had to listen to them as I had no insight into my own illness. I think I accepted that because I was so young when they started telling me that, that I didn't have any good arguments to give anyone, as I had never learned anything. Maybe if I had been older when it first happened I could have got better but I don't think anyone would even have noticed if I did anyway. My world was about following orders which is how they defined when I was 'good.'

I realized this only after I was dead.

There is nothing like dying to clear all the cobwebs and programming out of your head. I kind of think when the brain dies and the constant influence and other control is gone, the soul lives. You might say we “die and learn” ha ha. If I was alive and said that, there would probably be an intervention called as it would be heard in psychiatric terms. Or someone would ‘correct’ my metaphor for me.

Psychiatrists have lousy senses of humour.

I think that is because they live in their own imaginary little world. I used to ask this woman here who is channelling me if she wanted to be my girlfriend. That sounds childlike to me now but I was always so happy when anyone was really nice to me.

I had a lousy life on earth. I can say that now because no team of ACT workers will come after me, but had I said that then, I would have been 'corrected' for it and likely told I should be grateful for having such a great family. I think I was driven into a psychosis the first time when I was about 5 or 6 years old. I didn't really know what it was then, just that it was really scary and I never slept. Both my parents were alcoholics. They really scared me a lot. I was not allowed to talk about it. They told me that what went on inside those four walls STAYED inside those four walls. I never knew the difference between what was private and what was secret. I don’t think I knew there WAS a difference.

Anyway, as I said, with death comes a certain clarity of spirit. I am now a part of the living collective consciousness and the other spirits in here with me, both the living and the dead, are teaching me many things. One of the things I learned was how absolutely blind to reality most of the 'normal' really are. A female spirit told me that. I was talking about my struggle to stop getting picked on and she told me that most of the people who abuse us don't know, that we know, what they are doing! I thought that was just plain crazy. How could they not know we know? She said it was because THEY thought of us as if we were a different species and so they treated us as if that were true. When she said this, something started to click in me and for the first time I started to be able to figure out a few things I could make no sense of at all before. I remember feeling really upset about an incident on a bus.

Not long before this incident, I had been inside the hospital for another round of help in the endless lifetime series of it. I told one of my nurses that some of the bus drivers were really mean to me and I wanted them to stop, so she told me what I should do to be nice to them. She assured me that if I was nice to them, that they would be nice to me. I believed her and so I listened carefully to everything she told me so that I could change the situation. So I tried to be nice when I got on the bus.

I even remember saying once, Good morning Mr. Bus driver...It sure is a nice day today isn't it?

He just looked at me and didn't say anything. Of course now that I am no longer on earth, I know that this sounds so stilted and strange coming from a man in his fifties. But that you see is how psychiatric hospital staff talked to me, and that is what THEY defined for me as 'normal' behaviour. Of course, this did not work for a number of reasons which I understand NOW, but did not understand then. This is institutional type behaviour created under years, sometimes decades of invalidating and suppressing 'treatment.' It is like Stockholm Syndrome which happens when a captive must please his captors so that nothing worse will happen to him, and that is the mentality I learned, and what I was trained to live with. But there is nothing 'normal' about it. It is actually bizarre for a grown man to be expected to relate like that and to be told this is ‘good’ and proper.

One of my friends at the psych hospital used to say that you could not identify the 'inmates' in there apart from some of the staff without a program! That is true outside the institutions too. The belief that it is all nicely and neatly divided into sane and insane, normal and abnormal is nonsense. Yet we are told we must accept the nonsense as reality if we want to be left alone and avoid getting an even BIGGER dose of awareness reduction medication.

Anyway, shortly after my “good morning Mr. Bus driver” day, I got on another bus to go home after day of being mocked in public places; like a restaurant and at the mall. It had been a particularly horrible day, so I tried to act real nice to the bus driver who did not say a word back to me but then, he started talking about me like I was not there and two male morons on the bus with him joined in. One of them was sitting right in front of me on the seat which was sideways to me and the other was sitting directly across the aisle from me and staring into my face with an amused look on his face. Then the other one joined in by saying to the bus driver, Did you not want to say something nice to this guy Mr. Bus Driver?...The bus driver looked in the mirror at me and laughed. The other two joined in as he said to them, He won’t notice, he is just in a kind of fight with himself and has no idea what is going on anyway. The really sad part is that it is the guy sitting behind him that is winning the fight!” Then all three of them l just guffawed with laugher since there was no one else on the bus.

I just felt sick, and I decided to say something this time, kind of turned my head away because I already knew the kind of answer I would get would be to correct me. So I asked them, “Why are you doing this to me? I didn’t do anything to you.”

They all looked at me kind of grinning together and obviously really enjoying themselves and one of the morons asked the driver, Who is he talking to now?” The driver said, “He is talking to the people inside him who are annoying him...” Then they all laughed some more oblivious to my distress.

I used to believe when I was alive that they did that just to hurt me. But you know what? A lady spirit told me that they did not KNOW I was talking to them.

I didn’t believe her at first. I said to her voice, “how could they not know that?” I was sitting right there talking to them?” She said, it was because THEY were deluding themselves that you could not see, hear or understand them. That is how they give themselves permission to behave so badly and then deny it is abuse. But you were right Frankie. That was abuse and they should have been ashamed of themselves. Those of us left on earth are going to have to tell them every single detail of what they do and about what we know so we can bring them all out of the group delusion they are in and into the reality of the experience from the point of view of people like you and many, many others..

Then she said, So you see Frankie, that idea we all tend to have that we have to do something to try to save the world may not be so far off as the “normal” people like to think it is. It is just that none of us can bear that burden alone, it's too heavy, so we all have to work together to push back the force that is trying to overpower us. Together we can accomplish what none of us can do alone. Maybe it means we are ALL the spirit of Jesus and a lot of other saints and saviours together. That is, after all, what the baptism and the taking of communion is supposed to be all about isn’t it? It is supposed to represent being One in spirit. I always found it strange that Christian mental illness workers could never understand that at all. It is kind of funny really.

Anyway, after the lady spirit told me that, I started to feel a whole lot better and I think that when I am all healed from this, the kingdom of heaven is where we go after we let go of all the nonsense we were dragging around in the previous life.

I am free to say that right out loud, now that I am dead and no longer an offence to others. There is no psychiatrist or ACT team going to come to get me for my expression of ‘religiosity’ now.

I am finally free to be truly ME. I even think that I just might be coming back one day....of course, I'm nuts...so what would I know?

Community Acting Out- January 2012

Fri, 27 Jan 2012 00:00:00 GMT

Next stop: Pistachio Press

Did you know that “it is the guy with the beard who thinks he is in love with her?”

Really, there is nothing happening; nothing at all and I am only imagining it.

One of the other things I imagined this week....

”Well, everybody was sure that Steve would have told her. But apparently he did not tell her anything either.”

Needless to say, I will not be making any further reports of any problems at the library main branch, since it will only be added to my list of “symptoms.”....

The Late John McCarthy Irish Advocate

Thu, 26 Jan 2012 00:00:00 GMT

We Regret to Announce the Death

Of our friend, long time Psych activist, psychiatric survivour and outspoken critic of psychiatry, who spoke often on behalf of those who had their “Voices” taken away from them; John McCarthy, gone too soon at the age of 61. As a remembrance of John and a way to continue to hear his voice now, I am reposting one of his interviews in podcast form. We will miss him. But we will keep his spirit alive.

Madness Radio:
John McCarthy Irish Mental Health Advocacy

First Aired 3-28-2006 Duration: 57:12

Ireland Activist and Poet John McCarthy, Mindfreedom International representative to the United Nations, discusses being 'normally mad,' recovery, the UN Disability Convention, and challenging system abuses, in dialog with Will Hall and co-host Oryx Cohen. John also responds to callers, and reads a very moving poem about the death of a friend in the system. A very popular show.

Rt/Ctrl-clck download

Awareness Exercise: Very Brief No. 23

Tue, 24 Jan 2012 00:00:00 GMT

This very brief awareness exercise is for every single person in this city who has had an opinion of me and the reality of my experience here, who has felt entitled to express that opinion to others, regarding my character, personality or value, or of the situation with Dale Tuck and Homewood staff since 1993. (and possibly since 92, which is before my own awareness of him and his covert “game.”)

Please include in your evaluations of me; my FULL awareness of you, what you have done, what you have had to say, what you've “invented”, how much “fun” you have had, and continue to have, your lies about what you did, or did not do, your little “tests” given to see what kind of a reaction you can get, and the fact that my experience of ALL of it was neatly 'diagnosed” away as nothing but my “mental illness.”

Have you got that OK? Focus now. Now holding that image of my awareness in your mind, visualize yourself as me. Got the feel of that OK?

Here is the question:

How much smiling do you think you would be doing and how “friendly” do you think you would feel toward people like you, who not only never admitted to anything that they did, but also lied about it all and then let all your losses grow bigger, and worse, for decades?

Now visualize a group from the above mentioned categories of behaviour, mostly strangers to you, many who participated themselves in the psychological and verbal abuse, saying AT you, from six feet away, “People don't like her cause she is just not friendly enough.”

What do you feel now? Is it the urge to soothe the delicate feelings of the poor snubbed judge who doesn't like you and tells others about it? Or is it something else?

On completion of this awareness exercise, discuss the reality of it amongst yourselves and the possible payoffs all of the participants are getting from acting out their various roles.

Hint: in Sheridan Fenwick's analysis she makes mention of the voyeurs in a “snuff fantasy.”

f I Were Geraldine Seinfeld

Tue, 24 Jan 2012 00:00:00 GMT

What Everyday Topics Would I use for Material in My Act Today?

By Patricia Lefave, sit down comic[1]

How about...
Did you ever notice how the people who are the most negative people you know, constantly hostile and contemptuous of people they don't even know, are ALSO the same people who will tell you things like “we must always be positive..” if you just mention something as insignificant as the weather? Seriously folks, I know someone who spends every, single, day looking for those dark linings in every silver cloud, who can't go to the mailbox without turning it into a major melodrama, who finds all the shortcomings in everyone around them but who nevertheless “corrects” the attitudes of those who say. . “not too pleasant out right now...a tornado lifted me off the ground and tossed me into a tree..”

Now now, says the correcter (who complained yesterday about how hard it was on him to open the door to take his mail out of the box, adding a complaint about how the mail carrier put it inside the box wrong as it should have been facing “outward'... We must always be positive...it could have been worse now couldn't it? At least you are alive so you have much to be grateful for, now don't you?”

I mean... can these people just not HEAR themselves or what? This one can make his own everyday headache seem like major brain surgery at the same time someone else's actual brain surgery is minimized to the level of simple headache.

These are the folks who are always ranting, complaining and violating other people's boundaries, sometimes in extreme ways that seem really obvious, yet they seem to have no idea about what they do, that it is objectionable and no comprehension that those they are “correcting” are often in ten times better psychological shape, and in far better humour most of the time, than they are, while they tell us the “we must always be positive.”

I'll tell you one thing...I'm POSITIVE that these “happy” people are REALLY dragging me down into their chronic negativity and I need to avoid too much contact with all the “happiness” if I want to stay alive and functioning...har har har

I do think there is a TV episode in there somewhere though..a brand new show about “nothing” about a city with a large psychiatric hospital in it where the people most seriously labelled as mentally ill are actually the sanest members of the community but nobody knows it, or ever notices. It could make for some really great comedy; a show about a city where being psychologically twisted is considered to be normal and anyone who is not twisted stands out as “odd” and gets hunted down for treatment so they will become like the majority. It could be a kind of comedic Twilight Zone in which Geraldine, Georgette, Alan and Kruger must pretend to be “normal” in order to escape the help they do not want and do not believe they need but know they cannot SAY that as saying so is defined as symptoms “proving” how “crazy” they really are.

[1] Because I don't like to stand up on one spot for a really long time as I have foot pain these days...