As told by the sane and normal members of my building.
A few facts first:
I have removed most of the plants in the flower bed area under my window and intend to remove all of them, kill all the weeds and then cover it over with wood chips to keep the weeds at bay.
One of the hawk-eyes in the building notice the plants were all gone from my assigned patch, so they had to get together and go into one of their in depth character assessments over it. (This is a secret group behaviour now so don't let on to me that you know anything about it OK?) There has been quite a bit of the observation bit and some of that “now just what does she think she is doing'' stuff.
So one of them came up with another 'story' that may even rival the one about how I was supposedly standing and screaming at people, “You stop talking about me!”
(which never happened either but doesn't it make a good story for contemptuous people to tell so that they can compare themselves to me and feel 'superior”?)
That story was another 'interpretation' as passed along by the most recent key holder to the woman who feels she is there to speak for others since I am not capable of understanding anything she is sure she understands ever so much better.
(of course this too is all a 'covert' op so don't let on to stupid /crazy me that you know anything at all about it. Mum's the word...)This 'secret' group assessment though is why I told someone that I was sure she, who speaks for others, would be more than happy to take over looking after the other tenants interests. She seems quite sure her understanding of those interests is much better than mine so I agree she should take over.
Back to the garden 'story.'
They decided they needed to take turns going around the side to look at it and cluck over it and ridicule me for it and then they decided they needed to report that to the maintenance man.(who has not yet said a word either)
But the best part of the 'story' is this one. One of them decided, when they all got together at the assessment session, that since no one had SEEN me removing the plants and weeds that I must have done that about “3:30 in the morning.” They then passed this story along through the usual gossip mongering chain and one of them acted it out for me. Another one then laughed when she saw me in the hall and said “and they think I am crazy...” (this last one who has an ongoing relationship with the police, now believes she is my mental superior as well, and this is, as usual, based upon the 'stories' they make up themselves and then pass along 'as if' they were actually 'reality.' Once the 'stories' are repeated by enough people, everyone accepts the fantasy of their own creation as 'reality' and then treats me 'as if' that was who I really am and something I have really done. But they don't usually tell me that, or why, DIRECTLY, because this is a 'covert op' performed by the dysfunctional group, 'in secret” so that I won't 'find out'. The same people then smile at me in the halls, give out cheery hellos most of the time, and for the life of them cannot figure out what is wrong with me that makes me so 'unfriendly' towards them. 'They conclude that I must be 'anti-social.” (I will do a piece on the meaning of anti-social soon as well.)
Likely within a couple of days, this 'story' will also be acted out for me somewhere, like at the mall, or in the Library, or in the town square, etc. by the 'friendly' population and it will be accepted as truth. Usually I hear something like, ”Did you hear about psycho there? Apparently she was out digging in the dirt outside at three thirty in the morning.”
Of course this is the societal behaviour which psychiatry denies exists and calls it my paranoid delusions and hallucinated conversations. That is because all these people, most of who are strangers to me (and getting stranger all the time I might add) would have 'no reason' to behave this way. After all why would they make up such stories if it were not true? (Psychiatric Naivete Disorder)
I want you to notice though that there IS a grain of truth in the 'stories' and there usually is too. They just get 'spun' to suit the needs of the gossiping group. Then the group members react to their own fantasy oblivious to the fact that they are doing it.
Reality Based Fact: I am not interested in having a garden at this point in my life for several reasons which I won't offer here. I have already talked about this with the office of the landlord and was told I had several options I could use regarding my one personal space, which were laid out for me. The one I am choosing is removal, weed killing and covering it over with wood chips. I am allowed to do this and I would like to do it without a non stop commentary and reinvention of reality from other tenants. |