These I get daily for seventeen years. At times they peak, usually when someone has just done another round in the psych hospital and gets all the latest rumours from there to spread everywhere or out of twelve step meetings or from the drinking establishments etc.

In the est training this is called the ‘chain reaction’ and it gets dropped on the selected target like a psychic bomb by those who ‘choose’ power over enlightenment as the answer to their problems.

Today’s news is interesting because when they do this I always think this is more of the old absurdity being repeated yet again. I know now though they don’t do it on purpose intending me to see them and hear them. They are simply oblivious to themselves, to me, and to the perfectly obvious in it all and of course THAT fits right in with the estian concept of “You will fail to see what it right in front of you.”

Are you starting to see why a power est-ee with a hidden agenda of domination (est concept; “It’s about domination”) would sit and smirk to himself while listening to everyone else talk about his target over which he is maintaining ‘total control’ without anyone else knowing how he was doing it?

Well in any case, here is today’s newsflash and one that I have already heard many times, as is true in all of this:  

One of the women who lives in the apartment complex where I do now, and who has acted out for me MANY times before was talking to another who has also been gossiping for years and who lives a couple of buildings down.

“She knows everything. She hardly knows anybody here so I don’t know how she does it?”

How I do it is by listening to the gossiping about it everywhere I go every day, which is done nonstop by people just like this woman, who does it IN MY PRESENCE oblivious to herself. It is done by those who know my name only, by those who know only my face, by those who know both, and by those who know neither. It is done in a gossip mongering chain and SOME of those people who treat me with utter contempt don’t care at ALL if I hear them and even hope that I DO since in their opinion I deserve just what I am getting for being who I am as THEY understand me to be.

Todays’ news flashing woman has been given information about me from many of the residents of the apartment building, who do not really know me at all, but who are sure that they do because they have ‘heard’ all about me. One of them has a daughter who works at the nursing home on M. St., another has a niece at the one on W. Rd. Both places have employees who used to work at the psych hospital and who were involved in the “joke/game/ intervention that never happened.  One of them has passed along all she knows and also got some of the staff to find out some information for her. How do I know? It was acted out for me on a street, and on a bus, INCLUDING that the woman had told her not to talk about it on a bus, or let on where she got the information. So she told that to those with whom she gossiped about it ON THE BUS. Later, when the woman who is playing the amateur CIA agent heard about that, she got quite upset because she had TOLD her not to talk about it on the bus. She passed her distress along to another gossip, who in turn passed it along and so on... They have pumped health care agency workers and others for information to see what they can “find out.” Yet how do I respond to any of this since I am told how inappropriate it would be for ME to do so, but more to the point “nothing’ has happened here, therefore what is it that I know ‘everything’ about, when there is NOTHING to know?

estian concept: “Everything and nothing are the same thing.”

Let’s all smirk together at this great 17 years LONG ‘joke’ shall we?

The fact is that this community has been doing this all along and I have said so very clearly, but when I say that, it gets ‘assessed’ as a symptom of my ‘mental illness’ that causes me to ‘think’ people are talking about me when “really’ they aren’t. “Really” then, these are just my feelings about myself which I am “projecting.” Otherwise it might be the group members who are doing the ‘projecting’ of their own LACK of awareness and you know we just can’t have that now can we? I mean how would that “LOOK”?