It is not that it is hard to see or decipher; not at all. It is perfectly obvious but the splitting engaged in by the MAJORITY is concealing the view.

My label invalidates me, my experience, my perspective on my experience and all of my emotional reactions to ALL of it. That is what the diagnosis is FOR because at the same time it is doing that for me, it is protecting, enabling and supporting my aggressor and the whole group that went along with him and his 'game.'

The message comes through loud and clear. Your lives matter, mine does not, and you all consider me to be expendable. BUT, and I MEAN but, I am NOT expendable and you will stop thinking this way or I will repeat every disgusting word until it penetrates that well programmed psychological fog you are in. I will tell you again starting with the staff of that hospital having all that 'fun.” I am NOT expendable.

The masses just don't get this. My psychiatric diagnosis is a proclamation that 'really' nothing happened and I only 'think' it did BECAUSE I am 'crazy.'

When you talk about me, I am not 'allowed' to know that since my belief that you are talking about me is diagnosed as 'delusional.'

We whack jobs aren't 'making a big deal out of being called a few names' etc.

We are told that NO ONE is DOING that. We only 'think' that you are talking about us. So why don't you all get together again and discuss the kind of 'illness' I have that causes me to 'think' you get together to discuss what kind of 'illness' I have?

You fare box fannies standing talking to bus drivers about all the latest you have heard coming out of the psych hospital, with me , as your topic:

The psych hospital says you don't do that as it would not be 'reasonable' of you to behave that way. I agree.  But then the system does what it is existing  to do It dives into denial, proclaims my perception of you to be 'mad' and 'helps' me by 'reducing my awareness ' for me to a level of denial that matches its own.

So when you stand four feet away talking about me in the third person like I am not there, no need to say anything like , “careful don't let her spot you..” because I was totally invalidated for my perception of you a long time ago. I don't respond to your nonsense because I am either only imagining it or else you don't even exist. I am TOLD that by experts. We all are.

So if you look at me and say, “why doesn’t she ever say a word about it,” (as I have imagined you have done over and over again, along with much more) you now have your answer. It is because YOU are not saying that and there is no “IT” to say a word about. If I try to say there IS, I may very well get picked up for more treatment by the same people I 'claim' caused all of this in the first place and as they have already told me several times, they 'cannot allow that.' They have their own interests to take care of you see and I am only being 'unrealistic' if I expect anyone to admit to anything or apologize for it. For you see there is nothing for them to apologize FOR is there?

I intend to remain unrealistic, as it has been defined for me by the deniers, enablers and resisters and more than that, I intend to get as many of you as possible to connect to the reality of your own creation, your fabrications and see how truly idiotic this whole system actually is.

I think people are talking about me because that is reality. Denying that or 'overlooking' it is not going to change that. But keeping my silence while all of YOU yap yourselves into a conscious awareness of what has been right under your noses all along just might. So...she waits.

I am already out of the group insanity and have been for a long time. If you want to stay in it, feel free BUT (which modifies the part that came before) don't expect me to go along with your group delusion S.A.C.S.) or to pretend that what you do to me and to others doesn’t matter. It matters. I will say it again,

 You people should be ashamed of yourselves.

The fact that you are not is only an indicator of the depth of your OWN denial.