Could it be possible that est-ee psychiatric nurse's real 'satisfaction' comes from the 'observation' of his targets reactions, 'witnessing' the results of his choice for 'power', from 'seeing my fear,' from 'observing the action between the two 'sides'[1] of his 'recreation', and most of all from watching me be unable to escape the Zen-like metaphysical 'play' no matter what I say or do?
Could it be possible that this is the real rush he gets from doing this? Is that why he is alleged to have told his co-workers that this is the best 'investment' he ever made?
Does he sit and smirk to himself all through this because what he is watching and hearing, from those around him, trying to figure out what was, and is, happening, IS the 'recreation' of his training and all the predictable outcomes he expects to see and hear? Is he vague and ambiguous with everyone because that is the “source' of his power, balancing on the line at the nexus of meaning? Does it amuse him that they deny they are performing in this?
Does he sit and feel superior and as the “winner in the game of life” because he and I both know that “reality is NOT that which is being defined by the 'authorites,” at Homewood, and the University, nor is it defined by the abusive 'superior' mob[2] involved, but is, in fact, “that which I am experiencing?''
Has he deluded himself that his thinking and behaviour is acceptable, and even 'superior' because he was taught inside the training that I could not be a victim unless I 'chose' to be?
What if I have not made the choices he intended me to make? Will he then understand that choosing “power' over enlightenment” was not the right 'choice' for him to make?
Will he understand that if you bring the metaphysical 'play' 'out here into the world of reality' that he creates a concrete version of it which can result in both an evidence trail as well as the switch back?
Does it occur to him that when his leader called the trainees all 'ass-holes,' he meant it ,and that the leader was actually leading BY EXAMPLE and excusing himself also, because by believing it, he gave himself permission and an excuse to BE an aggressor with a hidden agenda of domination?
Does it occur to this est-ee nurse that when it used to be stated inside the est training that if they got really good at being an ass-hole they could become “est-holes,” it was actually a display of contempt for the followers who don't question 'authority' but who 'just take what they get and don't ask any questions'?
Does it ever occur to the est-ee nurse that the 'understanding that is the booby prize in life” as he wrote down for me[3] as the reason for his behaviour, is actually meant for BOTH sides of the “choosers” in the training; BOTH aggressors and victims?
Does he call you all 'ass-holes' because you cannot see “what is right in front of you” which is the false premise which is 'backwards' upon which the “empire” of est has been built?
What is that false premise you may ask?[4]
It is this:
That victims CHOOSE to be victims, therefore they 'deserve' what they get for choosing it AND (not or) that it is all right for aggressors to attack them and to absolve themselves of responsibility for it and to do so BY blaming their victims for the aggressors choice of bad behaviour.
It is the OPPOSITE of reality and that is the premise all of you “superior' people cannot see or hear.
Instead, you reinvent reality, for the victims by “creating and defining reality itself” for all those who are not in your 'group' or mob, and that way you can be “always right and never wrong” no matter how much concrete evidence there is to the contrary.
As the “German” (Nazi) /Jew at the top of the recreation pyramid could sure tell you, “really' there was no Holocaust either. It was just a 'fabrication' by those 'inferiors' who like to seek attention” by blaming those blameless 'others.' Why the aggressors aren't the monsters...oh no... their victims (who only claim or 'think' they are victims) are the real monsters for accusing those 'others' 'falsely.” In fact, the 'so called' victim were probably all 'crazy' sure...that's IT, that's IT exactly...
JUST LIKE ME!
Now you're “Getting IT!”
As was said in est...you may as well...you can't change anything anyway...
OR CAN WE?
Hidden agendas, once fully exposed ,lose their power to mystify and control and become useless.
The victim and the group manipulated with the false premise to attack the victim...
The group consensus referred to inside the est training
Whoops! He forgot abut the not writing anything down part!
Were you inclined to believe you don't already know everything and think it might be possible for someone else outside your 'group' to understand something you don't...
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