Invalidation and Control 12/1/2014 Admin 1548 views To all of you local superior minds and "covert" controllers and "story" tellers. Have your group-think sessions of the last twenty years or so come up with any theories on the meaning of "genuine direct communication" yet, or are you still in committee on that particular mystery? How about this mystery phrase, "Shut up; shut the hell up"? Got any well educated ideas on that one? Oh. I am sorry. Am I upsetting the apple cart, opening up a can of worms, or rocking the boat, the good ship Hamilton Three, with my more direct-yet still, indirect asking of unwanted, unacknowledged questions? Tell you what...don't ANSWER. I will just go out to the food court at the mall, or walk down the street, or ride a bus, or go to the library, or stand at the bus station, listening to psych students and university employees, of various categories, who have had the whack job here pointed out to them, debating all the latest assessments. ( most of those delivered with that delightful little patronizing tone you model for them as part of the tactics they are trained to use in dealing with naughty (old) children like defective me, . . Good Job! Now remember focus on my grammar, use of terms, or, run on sentence here, rather than the message ITSELF and its meaning, as it is very important that you stay in INVALIDATION mode, as the means of maintaining your self promotion and defense of the Splitter status quo. ) Or maybe, you could have the university professor, the one who lives on, or very near, my street, saunter causally down to my bus stop again, from his own near London, and try to ever so casually strike up a conversation just to see what kind of a REACTION he can get which I, of course, being the stunned banana that I am, will be unaware of as a performance and probably quite mystified by...... then he can report to my ex psychiatrist who can plan to, ever so casually, run into me somewhere like a grocery store perhaps, (right after it gets announced as a plan by someone who passes me on the street, just to do a sort of on the spot "covert" evaluation of me, and the situation, while still keeping to the primary rule of the system : no genuine, direct communication EVER, no equality and no admission of anything, that may cause problems for ANY of the group members involved, who of course are not involved, not really, since there is nothing for them to be involved in. GOT that? It may seem hard to GRASP at first, and even contradictory, but just think in terms of being "always right and never wrong" (estian concept- ask the est-ee nurse to explain it to you) despite any and all evidence to the contrary, which if, it should turn up, should be immediately suppressed, hidden or destroyed. (You know...like the undelivered mail sent by me and allegedly ordered by Ed Perez to be picked up and brought to him without informing those to whom it was addressed. (according to my street "hallucinations" back then.) To help you to feel OK about this, just continue to tell yourselves that my life is not as real, or as valuable, or as legitimate for me, as YOURS is, for YOU. That should help you stay all right with it. Oh yes... and if I get picked up for more "treatment" for my "delusional" beliefs about YOU, tell yourselves that although what I am saying about you is all true, my "treatment," even if forced on me, is not FOR that, but MUST be for something else, a REAL "illness" just like diabetes, and that the worst that happened is maybe you may have exacerbated a "pre-existing condition" or that I was really "predisposed" to go mad (loved THIS one) for no REAL reason at all, and that will allow you to CONTINUE to excuse yourselves, and keep it all covered up, and of course, virtually BLAMELESS. For as they say at the end of "Waiting for Godot" which the est-ee nurse asked me if I had ever read, before he handed me the "booby prize," for IT, "we are as scapegoats..unless Godot comes...". (another coincidence of course. I just "read too much into things," "things" others don't see, or hear, at all....and if those "others" don't see It, then IT can't be THERE to see, can it? ) for if it really WAS there, that would change the perception of everything wouldn't it? Imagine how "awkward" that would feel.?Clearly not feeling "awkward" is the most important goal in this. If I wasn't such a defective I am sure I would already KNOW that!