While Those "Observers" Observe Me...[1] 

[1]  While making sure they, as the 'others',  don't get blamed for anything, of course.

Included on this page is a featured series  I now call: 

Therapeutic Chats- for the Acutely Normal 

A Psychiatrized Individual Observes and Assesses the Disordered Mob from HER point of view. This is the same mad mob which has defined her as “inherently defective” and the same Mob Members who “hide” in plain sight, while defining themselves as the “normal” and as the standard to emulate.  Are these observations born out of my “paranoid delusions and hallucinated conversations” as assessed by my observers, or are they just an account of every day reality which is being stated as it is by the individual while being denied by the delusional “normal.”  

Let's just look at it and see what truths may emerge from the looking without the usual defence of the dysfunctional status quo blocking the view.  

Is this Psychiatric Fiction or Unrecognized, Unadmitted Fact? 

Let the reader decide for him or herself.

Newsflashes from the Last Two Weeks or So

One of my favourites from this week is , "this is how long it has taken to figure this out."

It is one of my favourites because it is actually a repeat performance that has been stated BEFORE, several times over the years....so how can it always have taken "this" much time to get it figured out" over and over again, while I continue to be ignored as if everyone knew nothing?

See this stuff is why this becomes a dysfunctional group comedy. Many labeled people elsewhere, have told me the same kind of thing; that they are stuck in this circle, of repeat performances and the denial of it by everyone around them, and no matter what they say or do, NOTHING changes it. This is why many of us allude to "Groundhog Day" as a movie that compares to the experience. It is a movie about living the same day, over and over again, and being the only one who can see it. (except now for all of us who are connecting together in the world to share the experience with others, who have had it and already KNOW what we are talking about.

Ideas in books are used by "us" for the same reasons. What do you think "doublespeak" means to us?

(Hint: SPLITTING, duplicitous, two-faced...double standards , them and us, defined by "who" and "not "what".)

What do you think the psychiatric survivor slogan means? "Nothing about us, without us."

Guess WHY that has become a slogan? Go ahead. TRY really, really hard to think of something.

So here is one of the newsflashes acted out recently. Street commentary:

"That's her. (two people glance at me together) He said he would not so much as get up to cross a room to talk to her."

Words and meaning:

Tell me who "her" is as defined BY the speaker.

Is the "he" mentioned in the first instance the same "he" mentioned in the second instance? Or is the second mention of "he" a second person that the current speaker is referring to as having said something abut the first "he" mentioned?

Is "not crossing the room" intended as sarcasm directed at me? Is that part even ABOUT me or is it about someone else? Or is "not crossing the room" intended as sarcasm directed at the "he" who would not even get up to cross the room to talk to someone as inferior as me? Is it a form of shared contemptuous bonding between the speaker and the one being spoken to?

If you think about this for even a minute or two, what this really MEANS depends upon the context in which it is delivered, intended or heard and it also spends upon the premise of thought to which it is attached.

Another example of the opinions being acted out over the years, by 'strangers" to me who obviously feel entitled to express their opinions has been o the character of my late father. BOTH poles though were connected to a show of contempt for ME as EITHER being "just like him" or saying terrible things about my own father behaving badly.. in either case I am on the receiving end of the judgments by people who do not know me at ALL. Take your pick. Of course virtually no one involved ever really gets the point and that is that the GROUP behaviour is routinely either denied to exist at all, or, it is justified by those performing it in one way or another. But it is NEVER acknowledged openly as REALITY.

For this you see is the same old "No One Must Be Blamed, Game...well, no one who really matters anyway....Oh and by the way, any of you who would "not so much as get up to cross a room to talk to me," (her) for whatever reason motivates that; I was not then, and not NOW "seeking fame" by claiming that people act out this way. Defined by my "belief' that people I "don't even know are talking about me." What I was then and am now "seeking" was, and is , some respect for my personal boundaries and my right to privacy.


The Awareness Gap
See if you can decipher the mysterious difference in meaning between someone who no longer bothers speaking to you, even though she has no idea what you have to say to others about her, “covertly,” and the same person who knows everything you have to say about her, which is not “covert” at all.
Perhaps a committee of experts could help all of you find the hidden meaning in that.
Of  course those SAME experts will tell you that if you are looking for “hidden 
meaning”  that means you need an anti-psychotic. So be careful what you say, and to 
whom, while you look so hard for that which has  never actually been “hidden.”

Reality Swallowed Up by The DSM

(Delusionally Subjective Matrix) 

I told my last psychiatrist, who I actually liked as a human being, that what psychiatry is actually doing, is including what actually happens to people in relation to dysfunctional groups, in our sick SOCIETY, as a part of their evaluations inside the parameters of the diagnostics as if it were “symptoms” when it is, in fact, REALITY which is being denied. I meant it then and I mean it NOW.


Email:   patricia-counterpsych@live.ca
Website:   http://www.counterpsych.com

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