Seen as Two Separate Realities
By Patricia Lefave
Dysfunctional group members who define me as "mentally ill" believe that if they talk about who others yet do not talk to me directly, I will not have any idea about what is going on with them. They, and those they discuss me with
, then talk about me in my presence
like I am not really there. This can be anywhere from one to ten feet away, often while their heads are sort of cocked together as they evaluate me in their own terms like an object. The SAME
people then see no connection at all
between how they treat
me and my reactions
to them. So they then discuss my lack of "friendliness" toward them or my "lack of personality" and any other of my 'defects' which they see in me. They discuss this also
in my presence like I am not there, but see NO CONNECTION
between their behaviour and my reactions, nor between this behaviour and my statement that it exists. So it is like watching their obvious
duplicity while the duplicitous consistently deny
it is there.
I and many others just like me who have shared the experience then get labelled "mentally ill" for seeing
this group behaviour so that the group members don't have to know they are deluding themselves about our awareness of them as well as their LACK
of awareness about both themselves AND
us. When I experienced this group phenomenon previously I used to sort of ask myself, What do these people think they are doing when they behave this way?Am I just invisible to them or do they think they are invisible to me?
What I had wrong in the question
was the "or." The answer is BOTH.BECAUSE
they believe they are superior and invisible
to me I am invisible to them as the person I actually am. It i not one OR the other. It is BOTH
because the point of the origin of the delusion in in THEM
, not me. Knowing
that changes everything, in terms of meaning, and allows everyone targeted by
those with hidden agendas of domination, as well as all the group members who support the "hidden" ones to understand what is going on with everybody esle and to make sense of their own experience from THEIR
legitimate point of view.
We may not get anyone else to snap out of their delusional comfort zone but at least we can keep them
or our own previous inability to "make sense of things" from driving us into another psychosis.
Understanding it changes that for us
whether the delusional group members understand it or not. If those of you who are put through this attach your experience of it to this new premise
, the chaos created by the lack of sense
in the experience will resolve itself.
Psychosis is actually the mind's search for the metaphysical meaning
that will allow us all to makes sense out of a senseless experience. It is directly connected to external reality as well as the internal one and is not something neatly contained strictly WITHIN
If I asked them directly of course, they wouldn't answer but now I know the "reason" they would not answer was because they were deluding themselves that they were "fooling" me or that I would not understand what they were doing anyway...which is a true
statement at the nexus of meaning also isn't it?
That's a metaphor
by the way and not a literal statement so hold the forced, idiot laughter after you invalidate my statement by taking it literally as my "belief" that I see "invisible people.'''
As the delusional group members all want us to believe without question so that they
can be the "sane" ones