Questioning Normality

Oh My Gawdddd!

My "mental illness" is asserting itself again. Bubbling up from within my defective little pea brain. I "think" city bus drivers continue to talk about me, and that there has even been a spike in bus driver gossip, including another round, once again, of the group assessment of my non existent alcoholism. (this first began when someone "covertly" passed along the news years ago that I had gone to Al- Anon, which I did, which is the organization for people "helping" and coping with the addicted ones.)

I rarely drink myself but here, we don't like any facts to get in the way of all the good "stories" as facts tend to ruin all the "fun" the story tellers are having by acting out all day and calling it "normal."

Now apparently ( or so my auditory hallucinations go) this has caused at least one bus driver, coupled with my pretence that I am a senior citizen, to decide to have nothing to do with me.

Just FYI: want to help you clear up the difference between ''secret boyfriend'' and ''imaginary boyfriend.''

A ''secret boyfriend'' would be one I actually had some kind of a relationship with but did not talk about to

others, whereas an imaginary boyfriend is one that I don't really have any contact with at all, but I tell

everyone else about him. See the difference there?

Now I am also said to be someone's ''girlfriend'' but since I am not in any relationship with anyone, that

could be described in that way, this means that I am someone's IMAGINARY girlfriend and not a ''secret

girlfriend.'' Hope this helps with the story telling routine...not that there IS one or ever was one of course.

I am just fabricating as that is what we hilariously funny whack jobs do, isn't it?

Oh well, I guess if I am not going to admit that I am really a drunken middle aged woman then I deserve the rejection by a complete stranger that I don't actually know.

Maybe this will teach me to let go of my sober old lady act.

Of course there is really no need to hear from me on this since as always, my reality is being created and defined FOR me by bus driver group consensus and therefore there is no need, and no desire, for any direct communication from me thank you.

Of course, the above, which I just wrote, is all just delusional nonsense from paranoid me anyway, so just continue to ignore it until I become too annoying with all talking about it, even in writing, and then send out an A.C.T. Team complete with a cop, armed with the usual taser (the "compliance convincer") who will no doubt take off his/her hat, as it is hats that really scare us all, and not being treated like criminals for being "'sick," just like with diabetes.. In fact, we whack jobs and the local diabetics often chat together at emergency about how much difficulty the police had getting us into the delivery vehicles in order to get us all the help we both need.

(I keep telling those resistant have a real disease just like delusional disorder and you have to take your medication for it...but they don't seem to want to listen to me, perhaps because their blood sugar is too high and it's making them really dopey. Nevertheless, once the A.C.T. Team gets me there, determined to "reduce my awareness" for me, (which I actually believe is more than theirs and not less, though I know the "awareness reduction" thing is actually facetious, and part of the humouring me bit) since as you experts have told me that, repeatedly, in the attempt to get me to accept the reality that YOU see...

"Do you not see?...bus drivers would have no reason to be talking about you..."especially right in your presence like you aren't there.

Therefore, my belief that they do, and are, is a "symptom" of my "mental illness" that needs "treatment." (big tranqs.)

For as we all know, and we are working on getting into the DSM, (Dark Secrets of Metaphysics) believing that you are more aware than most of the people around you, especially mental health pros, is another sign of how defective YOU are, for otherwise.....

"This is the infinite nature of the est training"- est concept.

Get the est-ee nurse instigator to verify that for you, "covertly" of course, as we don't want me to find out...

This is the infinite nature of your wake up call too.


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Who Defines the Normal and Why?
The Focus on this interactive page is going to be on the perspective we don't hear much about: the Normal group member and his or her role in the design and diagnosis of the assigned illness, given to the individual who gets psychiatrized, often for 'complaining' about his/her experience with 'others' as well as the Normal's function as a part of a Normal group.

Here we will shift the focus OFF of the psychiatrized one and ONTO the group as a whole, and some of its other members in particular.


I believe we need to take another look at 'Normal' and how it all got to be considered to BE 'Normal. In doing so we may just find that a whole lot of what is now considered to be 'Normal' might better be described as 'common' or ‘habit.' Longstanding dysfunctional relating for example is very often called “Normal' by those who are used to it, who want to stay 'popular' in their group by keeping silent, or who “don't want to make waves “in the name of “getting along.” Often of course, those who are “getting along” are not really “getting along” with everyone and are part of a well practised scapegoating system. 

So if you have some stories of your “Normal' experiences, this is the page for that.


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