Talking 'AT' My Psychiatrists

...While They Plug Their Ears and Hum Loudly

The Trickster Who Tricks HIMSELF Best of ALL

By Nobody

The "Zen-like joke" of this experience is completed when the mob that you ARE, claims together, that all which you "normal" people have participated in, at the direction of one controller, (sometimes more than one) with a hidden agenda of domination, used for the pre-set goal for gaining power and control, does not even EXIST.

Therefore "everything" you did and "nothing" are now the "same thing."

(this is part of Dale's written quote to me in the "booby prize" answer which he passed to me in Homewood dining room)

THAT "integrates" the estian opposites and it makes the target's life experience, from "her" point of view, MEANINGLESS to others. And that is how the victim/target is then treated by others from that point on, especially after "authority" invalidates the experience of IT, officially.

In reality though, both aggressor and victim know that it is the "story" used to gain the power that is meaningless, and that the aggressor is "recreating reality itself" to gain that control; the power and control over the target being the true END game and the point of it all. The mob of participants in it though don't KNOW that and they accept, usually without question, the new group/authoritarian assessment version of It, that "Nothing happened."

(Which in estian terms, "It" did!, since it's other NAME is "Nothing." But THAT of course is a secret the est-ee is keeping from non estians.) So saying "nothing happened" is positive AND negative, at the same time. HOW you HEAR that though depends upon you "perspective on It" AS reality. Power est-ees hear it one way, non estians hear It the other way and a very few of us can hear it BOTH ways, at the same time, as a construct apart from all concrete details other than itself.

So the power est-ee laughs and smirks to himself when all involved, no doubt "beneath him," declare as one, that "Nothing Happened" since HE then HEARS the "joke", or "game," that IS e.s.t. reaching It's "completion point." IT IS NOTHING. Har har har....

It's an admission of It AND the denial of IT at the SAME time. It is "timeless..." and "Nobody" (that's MY new name est-ee) Gets It. Find the hidden meaning in that ass-hole. Or are you so good at "being an ass-hole" that I should call you the "est-hole."

Let me "help" you now.

Do you all, as the est-ee, believe that this Nobody got It from you? I mean of course, the UNDER-standing or inferior status compared to you.

In reality, from MY perspective on It, what this Nobody "got" was the "understanding."

(Comprehension of you and your "joke/game".)

So NOW, Nobody here, is giving IT right back to you; the "booby prize" of under-standing- the real kind of "enlightenment" which is now integrated and which will cause your warped POWER to "'cease to exist;" understanding as comprehension AND under-standing as the inferior status you worked so hard to give to me. I am also giving the REAL prize of understanding (integrated) to everyone else involved, whether est-ee, or non estian, so that they can ALL see It, and hear It, for exactly what IT really is, and THAT is what it is, which they have "failed to see" before NOW.

I must admit Dale, that it IS giving me a certain amount of "satisfaction" to "recreate It" in the "way that seems most useful to me", which is for the "purpose" of making It, as the thing that is bothering me, "disappear." "Recreation IS" indeed, "Causing Disappearance. "

For as I said many years ago, MY "item" is "the game" itself and I AM the "Nobody who Got It."

THIS is our "point of agreement" and where YOU understand what, "It's about responsibility" really MEANS when the "estian shift" is no longer shifty ENOUGH, to "work" for YOU.

They stop doing It when It no longer "works" for them. That is the ONLY reason they will stop because "doing It because It works" is the only reason they use IT. "Reason" (logic) has NOTHING to do with IT.

You are a mob in denial, locals. Time to face reality so you can GET OVER your group insanity. You can get THROUGH your insanity and come OUT of IT. You just have to recognize your dysfunctional GROUP "condition" and then deal with IT.

Nothing really changes AND I am changing IT. From MY perspective on IT, THAT is a good thing and not a nihilistic, defeatist, excuse for switching "sides" from victim to aggressor. That is because MY "now" is a sphere and NOT a triangle/pyramid scheme designed to make me a pile of money at other people's expense.

The guru stated- (ambiguously of course in estian style) "You may as well, you can't change anything anyway."

Actually I CAN change SOMETHING, because I know I have limited power and do not need to change "everything." My limited power is like the ripple effect. It is not as dramatic as the Big Bang of creation, where everything comes from nothing, nor the Big Bang SOME are getting from "re-creation" where almost anything can come out of Nothing. It DOES have It's own smaller effect ON everything over a period of time though, and I do it (my ripple of something) because it works for me AND everyone else as well. There is no "choosing of sides" involved in it.

Hey! What do you say we name MY construct, "Rippling"? I will be Ripley, fighting off the Alien(ists) and you as my equal followers can be called "The Ripplers."

By the way, you Homewood Controllers; because (as Mulder says,) "The Truth is Out There," despite all efforts to suppress, or alter It, you won't be ABLE to stop The Ripple Effect. There are too many Ripplers who will want to join the new mission in our collective "Outer Space.'

It's about KNOWING.

P.S. if you decide that you want me to explain this control crap to you as performed here by the est-ee and friends, let me know. It is not usually CALLED e.s.t when others do it but the construct is basically the same. You see est-ee and company

I am "Nobody" and Nobody Gets It


When Nobody Gets It, Everybody Gets It, because in MY version of "enlightenment" and the integration of opposites, "Everybody and Nobody are the same thing."

"Finished" in e.s.t. is defined as the point where all further search stops. I reached that point a long time ago and whether you "Realize Your Experience" or not, the est-ee has also reached that point, he is finished, and so is IT. Now we can ALL get IT together (abstract AND concrete) and each be a SOMEBODY whose lives all have meaning. For in reality, "We are one AND we are many."

That's just a fact; not a "choice."

Looks like "the Joke" is on YOU..

Calling all Ripplers! Read the words to all those still trapped in the paradox

So that they can Get OUT of It


So they can Get IT, OUT of THEM.


Current Blog Article: The Trickster Who Tricks HIMSELF Best of ALL

Thanks to Loren Mosher for his endless trying to have us all be HEARD as human beings

The last line of Getting It: the Psychology of est is

“The only way to stop a nightmare is to wake up.”

So Homewood- WAKE UP! Wake up to the REALITY that is right in front of you!

Take the LEAP!


And Yes...words CAN heal us all, even psychiatrists, but not for as long as you are plugging your ears and humming loudly so that you won't have to hear them.


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