Truth To Power/Questioning Authority

True Intimacy

No one can have an intimate relationship of ANY kind, physical or non physical, with another individual who perceives him or her self as inherently superior and therefore entitled to impose his or her own will and definitions of reality on the other. Intimacy requires equality as the premise of it's being. Without it; intimacy cannot exist.



Medicalizing Real Illnesses 

Experts have announced that the medicalizing of diabetes has been deemed to be a great success. 

Does that sound absurd to you?

Same here.

Would this kind of reasoning be that known as doublethink if found in an old sci-fi novel?



There is No Absolute Truth in Abstract Concepts

 Apart from Concrete Details

There is no such thing as defining the life and experiences of individuals in terms of abstract truth in absolute terms. The attempt to do so, as has been done by psychiatry with the DSM, in all its pretensions, is insanity itself. You just keep making it worse and worse, by adding more and more, to the damage already done, with the invention of ever more imaginary diseases.


Infinite Tautologies

Sitting in a psychiatrist's office and being labelled as crazy with no prospect of recovery, after 11 minutes have passed since I first said, “how do you do?” is not considered to be an action that is “harmful” to me, by the doctor who labels me that way, which he does BECAUSE I “think” I have been harmed by others, in particular, in my own case, by “others” who are all part of the mental illness system itself!

“Crazy” does not get any crazier than that. Had I laughed out loud at that point I may have had a slightly different label bestowed upon me but the absurdity of it would still be pretty much the same. The feeling of “invisibility” which overcomes many of us in this situation is generated by the system itself. You MUST change this.

I once told my recovery therapist that I had long viewed the whole planet as one big insane asylum. You don't get FULL
I once told my recovery therapist that I had long viewed the whole planet as one big insane asylum. You don't get FULL "Privileges" until after you are "released" for good....

Definitions  Updated

What psychiatrists need to define, contain and control the most is psychiatry's ever expanding need to define, contain and control everything and everyone!

Forensics Cops and Psychiatrists

Just as evidence without context is all but meaningless (cops)

So is Context (or theory) without evidence. (psychiatrists, DSM writers)  

In BOTH cases, theory (abstraction) and evidence (concrete proof) must go TOGETHER. Let's sing it now....cause you can't have one without the o...o..other!

Which "Power" Really Does not Like, ...
...and does not really want to hear. So "Power" has instructed Me (in "private" of Course,) to keep my truth to myself, or Power "could"  overpower Me....

No One REALLY "Hides" in Plain Sight
Yes definitely..but still not as much as Psychiatry fears the Idea

The Training is ALL Nexus Statements

Like- "It's about domination."

WHAT about it? Well, as it is said, "There is no reality; only perception."

or "You may as can't change anything anyway."

You may as well WHAT and you can't change WHAT anyway?

Of course the statement itself is not entirely true since WHAT it means depends upon the context (or is it con-text?) in which it is used and the concrete details to which it is attached.

If you REALLY want to find out what happened here, involving THIS local Large Group, in it's "Awareness Training" you need to look at the DETAILS. That MEANS concrete investigation, rather than a suppression of the complaint or invalidating the perceptions and reactions of the complainant, with a pathologizing label used to control "her" and keep "her" quiet. In reality I am not really "totally controlled as the est-ee might like. Pretty close to achieving that but in reality, (the one I live in) there is no such thing as TOTAL control over anyone or anything.

Get the book on the Large group being trained in awareness. Then fit yourselves into the "play" by recognizing your own roles in IT. Once you have that part of your training completed, "DO something about It!"

As far as "It" goes from my point of view, as the honorary "Jew" in "the game," I STILL don't know how MUCH of this was controlled and directed by the est-ee nurse, who was QUOTING from IT, and how much was a spontaneous GROUP reaction included the group "fabrication" used to justify itself. I once told my one of my TEAM of psychiatrists (because some nuts are harder to crack than others) that the est-ee nurse looked to me like he kept dropping into a trance state. That seems quite likely to me now and has since I read the contents of the est training in 99.and learned that the guru also studied group hypnosis.

If you do an investigation, try telling the group of participants, who closed ranks to take care of their own interests (which is quite predictable by the way) that if they lie about what they did, they will be charged with obstruction.

Then, find out from ME how much evidence I have collected over time and what a lot of the names and connections those "strangers to me who I 'think' are talking about me , because I am crazy, ACTUALLY have to Homewood staff involved with the est-ee, and to others involved, who at least know who I am by sight, and who have enjoyed all the "fun."

"Reality is mostly an illusion, albeit a very persistent one," Albert Einstein

a "Message" off the T.V just for you....

Often those who are most in touch with the real world are those who see things and hear things that others do not.

A "Message" from me, off the Internet, just for you....

When you 'graduate' from your est training, it's called getting "experienced experience.'

-because they "say everything twice in est." (Fenwick)

I think this is most appropriate to do since everything is double entendre used at the nexus of meaning.

"It's about domination." Accusation OR instruction?

Or is it a revelation after you 'graduate" and see the WHOLE thing is two sides of the same experience and NOT two different experiences apart form each other, defined as an illusion of "winners" over "losers."

It's cause AND effect, all you "winners" out there; not being "at cause" OR "at effect."

And this TOO is all a matter of perspective, BUT (and that's my big but, which modifies what comes before it BUT does not negate it entirely) you have to :give up your game" to be able to see It and hear It.

Street talk: "A whole lot of people have been hurt by this."

First, what is the definition of "this" to the speakers?

Next: silenced person's response based on the "this" I have experienced: "Yes we know.

It's About Your Commitments.

(estian concept)

How very amusing might that be to an est-ee psychiatric nurse who picks power and then uses It for that "purpose" while keeping the contents of the training to himself?

Also, they are told to be careful not to compare your experience of It to that of others.

Well, superior people, It's about MY "commitment" too. In more ways than one.....(har har har)

Mainly, from MY perspective, it's about my commitment to "show you" how I hear It as a revelation and what I am revealing is the structure itself, and It's "potential' to shift, or "move" reality itself, in various ways, which can profoundly affect humans. Also, that It can have a lot to do with the "potential' of the humans using It in "whatever ways seem useful to THEM."

You see, my OWN personal "commitment" is not about being labeled "paranoid and delusional" as the means of explaining AWAY my experienced experience." It is about switching It BACK (converting It) from a play of adversarial opposites to an original binary form of complementary opposites; from "recreation" back to creation, or genesis, you might say, if you could manage to HEAR it without being so literal all the It was before the "fall from grace."

(How's THAT for some nice "religiosity" for ya?)

Right now, it is still like the binary code of programming that has us stuck in an infinite Loop of Destruction.

( my altered state imagery from 95 caused by being bombarded with non-stop contradiction and multiple VERSIONS of "reality" generated by the 'inputs" of a large group of "superior" people, looking for hidden meaning, where there was none and failing to see it where it WAS.) for because we fail to see the bug in the program, we also fail to see "what is right in front of us."

One of my own, now late, clients at Homewood once said, "I know my insanity is circular."

"That;s right," said the doctor who failed to see that HIS insanity was also circular.

"I don't know how to get out of this situation," said my client to me while feeling trapped in the system.

I know. I also know something about HOW to get out of IT. Let me help the helpers in a good way by being equal with good boundaries.

Life is not really a "game" or a con-test of winners or losers. It s a mutual experience of equal "cells" in the "body" of a whole. So if someone wants you to join some subset of "winners" HEAR that for what IT IS. For in such states, in order for some to "win" by definition there MUST be some "others" to who the "winners" can compare themselves, in order to know who is whom, in the Split Reality. Those "others" MUST also be defined in some way by the "winners" as the" losers." Otherwise the "winners"" in the "game of life" would actually be signing up to pay for a load of crap.

How's that for a "possibility"? Potentially idiotic?

Want to Understand Your Own Participation?

If any of you locally want to understand HOW you got sucked into acting out in the group abuse "game", including passing along various slanderous "stories" or excusing violating personal boundaries and making excuses for it, while believing that you are somehow magically "hidden' from your "inferiors" such as myself, you could look it up on the web or in books on sociology, using key words like; group-think, mob rule, mobbing (see Prof. Ken Westhues site) cults, group dysfunction, genocides, secret societies, just to get you started in the hunt for "hidden meaning." From these you should be able to find something more specific to your own "agreements." (as the say in est)

Who knows? Perhaps, if the people like the woman who spews her contempt at me, in places like the town square, saying things like,"she thinks we don't KNOW she can hear us......

(adding more contempt to that which she had already dished out previously, for which I gave her the benefit of my doubt, )

does a little bit of research she may see something new. Why, she may even be able to learn to stop externalizing her own obvious faults and just own them for once. Who knows?

Let's all aim for this:

Sometimes, not always or never, we CAN, quite legitimately, "blame others," based on what they do, or don't do, for which it is actually APPROPRIATE to either blame them, or not blame them. I call this philosophy, Paranoid Patty's Pouncing on the Platitudes of Perpetuity. That's because I am now at the age where I like to "P" on things.

For those who think that's too much "P" for them, we could also call it simply, Stepping Out of the Group Insanity Snare and into REALITY.

(S.O.G. I.S. Training? We can vote on a "therapy" name for this later.)


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Use of Language

One of the things that the late activist, Judi Chamberlin and I were in agreement on was the idea of taking the languageaway from our controllers/abusers. It is something that comedians use as a tool as well since doing so takes the power away from those who use the language to reduce us to “less than” so that they can delude themselves that they are “more than” and therefore entitled to control us.

That being stated then,' How are all you psychiatrists enjoying my writing behaviours?”


I was so depressed when my marriage broke up that instead of taking an anti depressant as suggested by my doctor, I got a dog instead and named him Paxil. 

I am doing all right now, thanks to Paxil.

You are not really objective observers of inherently defective human beings. That's a delusion.

You are DEFECTIVE observers of equal human beings in distress, caused by events, traumas relationships, drug and alcohol problems, or beliefs and often a combination of some of those things.  To “treat” people like self-contained “disease processes” without relationship to external reality and other people is probably the MOST damaging, isolating thing you could do. So I will ask you from here, so that you can hide and feel safe; WHY are you doing this to “us”?

Collective Pretensions

If you are worrying about how you look and sound to others, as compared to how you actually are, does that not mean that at some level of your being you actually KNOW that you are splitting and operating from behind a facade? Do you think other people don't know that or are you just counting on them joining you in the Pretence so that they too can be popular, like you, for co-operating with the currently promoted, splitting agenda and calling it “normal?”

Guess this is maybe why you folks have turned words like “compliance” into “good” character traits huh? Why....if even YOU high minded folks diagnosing the world are doing it, it MUST be right and normal! 

Seeing Things
Seeing Things
Does This Sound Familiar to Most of You?
Now do you think that is because all of us who say this sort of thing are just out of touch with reality or is it because we are IN touch with it and some
other people are having trouble accepting things at face value?

It's Nameless 

We live in a schizophrenic SOCIETY which has a grocery store brand called “No Name” which is meant to indicate that this is not a brand name and, which is registered AS a brand name, so that “no name” cannot be used by anyone else who wants to claim their generic, non branded product has “no name!”