It is MADE complicated by the programming of the dysfunctional group-think taught with a goal of maintaining the Systemantics. (system-antics)
"But, however difficult it may be to know what a system is doing, or even whether it is doing anything, we can still be sure of the validity of the Newtonian law of Inertia as applied to systems:
A system that performs a certain function or operates in a certain way (like dysfunctional family systems, or psychiatry for example PL) will continue to operate in that way, regardless of the Need or of Changed Conditions.
...When a system continues to do its own thing regardless of circumstances, we may be sure that it is acting in pursuit of inner goals. This observation leads up, by a natural extension, to the insights that:
Systems develop Goals of Their Own, the Instant they come into being. Furthermore, it seems axiomatically clear that Intrasystem Goals Come First.
(close ranks and protect the system)
Quoted from "Systemantics" by John Gall 1975
Now perhaps dysfunctional self serving systems have self comprehension problems. What "real disease" might THAT be?
So, my "diagnosis" used to invalidate my perception of, and reactions to, my OWN experience of reality, goes basically like this, in simple form:
The Infinite Loop- the beginning and the end rest on the same point.
The controller switches positions with his target. He then gives one VERSION of reality, ambiguously stated of course, to the target and an opposing VERSION, also ambiguous, to the group being manipulated. This is done to ensure that he is creating and defining reality for BOTH sides in his "recreation" of the estian abstraction. The goal is to experience his "item" out of his circle, called "the condition." He feels powerful and in control as he observes the action between the two sides. For he already knows that he works somewhere where the politics is MORE important than the work itself. So the group being manipulated can be expected to close ranks to protect the system.
(which they did and which at least ONE of them told me directly I should "realistically" EXPECT them to do and I did.)
Of course the system must THEN explain AWAY my perceptions/reactions. Luckily, this is also a system (not unlike est itself, or other dysfunctional groups) that has the concrete POWER "to create and define reality itself" FOR those who try to resist, expose or change IT.
est-ee goal reached.
Target is "totally controlled" by his hidden agenda of domination. The target is now trapped in the paradox created to prevent any REAL resolution. Only the controller and the controlled one REALLY understand that and of course no one BELIEVES the controlled one as they all look for reason where there is no reason in the first place- in the controller.
For in reality, "reason" has nothing to do with IT. So now, the controller feels he has Total Control over his target and smirks with "satisfaction"- which his training told him he would get.
As Fenwick stated_ "The Power is real."
Here is a quote from the back of the dust jacket on the other book,
Outrageous Betrayal, by Steven Pressman.
"I am the source of est...a source creates something from nothing."
(Is that like God OR the other name for "the Source."
As was said of the Holocaust, "nothing happened."
As Gordon Warme, M.D. Psychiatrist said in one of his books, that it was the "taking of a victim stance which brought it all down on their own heads. ..and I'm not blaming the victims either."
Yes Gordon, you are; and so is the one who identifies with the aggressor and tells us there is "nothing to get" ...except NOW it is a positive statement that refers to something made out of nothing.
At the end of the training, after spending a very long time trying to figure out what IT MEANS, many trainees say, "I don't get it.."
(and they ALSO got IT, because they were literally sold NOTHING and they bought It)
At that point they were told, "there's nothing to get, so you got IT!"
(the "integration" of abstract thought with concrete reality.)
The training is delivered with no concrete context (con-text) and therefore means nothing until the two sides, abstract thought, with concrete framework, are integrated as "one."
This makes it a closed system; the system that never TELLS anyone what to think, or to do, with the abstract ideas, delivered apart from concrete details. The "choice" of HOW to hear it or WHAT to do with IT is left up to the individuals, and that is why before entering, one must have a CONCRETE goal, since individuals will be expected to connect THEIR concrete goals TO the abstract metaphysical structure; which will give it the meaning THEY "get" from IT.
You know you can't hold "the Source" responsible for negative outcomes when he did not actually DIRECT anyone to think, or hear, or do, anything specific, can you?
So what is the concrete framework for the "Source" of IT? Why, it is the est organization and the training program ITSELF, isn't it?
The primary points that are "switched" in est itself, right from the "start of the action" are;
Victims with aggressors (Jack with the persona, Werner)
The controlled with the controllers
Powerless with the powerful
The meaning of life with the meaninglessness of est
The "Losers" with the "Winners"
The beginning with the end
Enlightenment with Darkness (obfuscation)
And those with REAL understanding (comprehension of the bait and "switch") with those who really just don't get it at all, and never have, but think that they do and that they are "superior" in their lack of understanding.
That is because what is REAL is OUTSIDE the CIRCLE of their own understanding which is in fact, delusional. Their "items" which they like to "experience OUT of their circle," are actually the ones who have the higher understanding and who KNOW that it is the splitting of reality itself, into "winners and losers," "them and us" which is the REAL problem and that which is "at cause" of everything destructive that happens to everyone, INCLUDING all the "winners" in "the game of life" who can't see It coming because they are "certain that they know" what they actually don't understand at all; mainly THEMSELVES and their OWN faulty premise.
It is about "responsibility."
Now...what do YOU think the sociopath Gets out of IT?
Does It have anything to do with "choosing" between "winning OR losing, being an aggressor OR a victim, gaining "total control" OR being totally controlled?
Believing that the "choice" offered is the ONLY choice there is, IS the problem.
Wake up to the reality OUTSIDE of the loop of destruction.
It's about expressing two sides of the SAME reality.
It's about experiencing the twisted power rush obtained through identification with the aggressor, in order to help you understand how otherwise "normal" people, with reasonable intelligence, such as yourselves, get manipulated to become willing to support psychopaths, who bait them with the idea that they are the "superior" people.
It's about experiencing the powerlessness of victimization as performed on you, BY these "normal" people, who are often people you know, and the futility of trying to "reason" with, or "get through to," these "stimulus response machines" when they are not acting from "reason" in the first place.
It's about being caught in escape proof traps/paradoxes, when the MORE you try to state the truth of your own experience, the more it is heard and defined as delusional, BECAUSE It was defined in just that way, BEFORE "the Game" even began.
It's about blaming the victims for "choosing" to be victims AND excusing the aggressors by claiming that the victims MADE them do It, simply by being the "defectives" which the aggressors have defined them to be.
Lastly of course, to close the loop, (snare) it is about the denial of the existence of such events as these, and the participation of the masses of followers of "authority" who make it all possible in the first place.
For "really," there was no "genocides" in real life, or organized bullying....uh....I mean, est exercise....planned and executed by a self proclaimed est-ee, psychiatric nurse. Paranoid delusional ME only "THINKS" there was because I am a defective. I, like so many others, who "think" we are victims, are only SAYING that, "just to seek attention."
For we are in the role opposing those who always assure everyone that "NOTHING" happened; those trying very hard to AVOID any attention being directed toward, or focused on, THEM. For if the truth about It comes out into the open, then it's game OVER.
"Nothing" is the CONCRETE definition of It also. That's the integration point and is the meaninglessness of the guru's life "game."
Of course, that's because he is integrating himself as two losing "sides" of the same losing paradigm. It is based upon the delusion that there is NOTHING beyond what HE can perceive. In reality...there is a world of REAL meaning, OUTSIDE the "them and us" horse shit. Of course, he would need to change his OWN mind, to be able to get It.
People with high I.Q.'s often take an obvious truth and turn it into a complex mess so that they don't have to look at themselves or WHY they do it. That is so that they can keep right on promoting the false, or alternate, reality used to elevate themselves at the other's expense. For otherwise they couldn't believe, according to their CURRENT belief system, that if they don't "win" the contest they think they are in, the only other "choice" is to be the Loser. They don't understand that if they think THAT is the only "choice," they are already the losers right from the start of their own attempt to be the "winners."
The guru offers them the "choice" of being on one side OR the other while he chooses neither side and opts instead for a balancing act at the nexus of meaning. This is Werner's Razor" as HE calls It. Is THIS his idea of transcendence? It seems to me, and some others also, more like a balancing act on the razor's edge of sanity/insanity. The only way to "win" THAT "game" is to STOP PLAYING IT.
Take the Quantum Leap OUT of your own "loop of destruction" guru. There is "SOMETHING" that is OUTSIDE your own closed system where you are doing your "well balanced" act. Get off your OWN act!" Wake up to the reality of your SELF. It is all you have ever really had and all that you can ever really GET. You must become "ONE." That means a unique individual with good boundaries, an equal "cell" in the "body" of the whole "Being."
One and one equals two; not three. It is two sides of the SAME experience which validates the existence of BOTH points of view at the same time. There is no "choice" to make other than the choice to get out of IT while it is still possible to do so in one piece.
There is a reality and changing your perception of it isn't going to make itgo away. Instead, embrace a new reality and make that IT, which has been "NOTHING" all along, go away.......
Now DO SOMETHING about IT